welcome to my life

2008-04-30T00:47:00.000-07:00

Go check out this link

http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=ymU7N5i-P7Q

They're seriously damn good. Since I don't club no more, the only place I can shuffle at would be home sweet home. I've a couple of videos but bloggers video system still needs working on. =)

Ram says it's been 6 months since I last blogged; only you would calculate stupid things like that yea ram? So here I am blogging once again.

I'm working on FYP at the moment, everything seems fine and it's going to be a kick ass film so all you people (who still visit this blog that is) do come for the opening night; details to be posted at a much later date

I just want to say thank you

for all the sacrifices

for all the pain

for all the laugher

for all the love

for all the sincerity

for all not mentioned

I love you! =)

2007-10-10T21:19:00.000-07:00

*sniff sniff* the air here smells stale. Haven't had to mood to blog for so long. . . Basically, I merely took a leave of absence from blogging but today's special cuz today happens to be JAMIE N JAMES' 1st YEAR! yes... 10.10.07!!!

We didn't really celebrate it today cuz of school tml and she had to go home early and all so we planning to have dinner and everything on saturday. For today, we just went to look for couple rings at Ang Mo Kio Hub and Bishan. Finally settled for wedding rings look alike at Bishan. We agreed we wanted a mature look and not too GINA (kid in hokkien). The collection date is tomorrow and henceforth, I'll have a ring on my left hand until the day I get married. heh heh! So then after ring shopping, we caught "The Nanny Dairies" and well its and alright show I guess. Probably 2 1/2 or 3 stars? The storyline was there but could have been a lil better.

I just sent the sweet girl home and before she went home she like set up candles forming the words "I *heart* U" and started singing a sweet song to me while holding up 4 pieces of paper with the letters L - O - V - E written on each paper respectively. So sweet right? haha I love you Buibi! Now i'm really looking forward to saturday!

Life has been alright so far I guess, class is bearable and fun, I'm trying to learn how to shuffle (PEOPLE!! go to You tube and search for Melbourne Shuffle.. check it out.. seriously) and I'm saving up to buy a psp.. probably.. not sure about that yet. I realized one thing bad about RP you make too many friends then you don't know who to spend time with during lunch.. lol I'm serious! For me, my best friends in RP shall forever be Raymond, Ram and Faisal then the rest all are becoming hi and bye friends... sad really but I can't be bothered to go mantain friendships. I rather have a strong bond with a couple of them then to have alot of other friends.

Alright everybody.. goodnight!

2007-10-10T08:20:00.000-07:00

Love was made for me & you.

Teng deng!

2007-08-16T20:53:00.000-07:00

you're wrong!

Hate me,

Don't need me,

If that's what you want.

That's your solution for this?

please...

I fucking don't even wanna blog...

2007-08-09T20:11:00.000-07:00

Happy National Day SINGAPORE!!!

2007-08-06T20:41:00.000-07:00

PISS OFF

PISS OFF

period

2007-07-30T09:08:00.000-07:00

Hey guys! Thanks for coming down yesterday yea? This goes out to like Jared, Sarah, Shaun, Melvin, Gail, Mike, Yvelyn and Gerard. Thanks for everything... it was good to see everyone together again.

BUT OF COURSE..... especially to baby for making all of this happen. I love you.. and I'm sorry I didn't seem all that enthusiastic but you know why... sorry ok? We'll do this together. I've come up with some plans to be better... maybe it'll work? Just tweak my thinking here n there and behavior here n there and viola a changed man. I love you.

Anyways I'm like back in school aft being sick for one whole week. I'm definitely getting better no worries. I'm glad I'm getting better too.. been so moody and down lately but now I'm a happy happy man.

Don't think so much

If I could live life like an anime character I would sieze that opportunity right away to get me away from all of this shit and nonsense called reality. Sometimes you feel so alone and small and unsure of what to do and you just want to have like a fairy god mother or something to save you. Yea guess I'm thinking too much. Bye.

Love you baby

2007-07-28T13:34:00.000-07:00

My mood has taken a turn for the worse... WHY?

1. Just went for blood test to check whether I have dengue (results monday)

2. Fucking have to stay at home

3. Fucking nothing to do at home

4. Want anime also so difficult to get..

5. My girl has to go church early

6. She staying in church for GOD knows how long... (literally)

7. Those fuckers are pissing me off yet again

8. Thinking about those fuckers pissing me off pisses me off even more

9. It's supposed to be a fucking happy few days for me but I'm sick...

10. I just feel like kicking the bucket (not literal)

Fuck off you fucking screwed up people... sailing under false colors would be a fine Motto for you fuck tards.. I don't see the big hoo ha over such a stupid thing... seriously stupid stupid stupid. I rather let my fingers do the talking then keep it in and just cause more headaches for me. So FUCK YOU...

2007-07-28T08:41:00.000-07:00

If you are, SO AM I dammit.

I'll just mind my own business from now on and don't give a fuck.

2007-07-27T18:12:00.000-07:00

Okay some thanks are in need here....

Thanks to:

The people who wished me through msgs, friendster and in person... too many names for me to recollect here but thanks anyways!

Baby and Sil and Aunty for organizing the party for me! I really enjoyed myself but alas I was sick and didn't look to happy cuz I felt that I was spoiling everything. Thanks to Sil for the certificate! Hey I think seriously that having it in writing makes me feel more relieved.. haha I've finally graduated! and of course!!!! THANKS TO BABY!!! for putting in so much effort to build and paint and glue the wooden carnival together... it'll always be on my shrine... always. And thanks for coming up with the video idea too lover! I love you!

Thanks to Ram and Raymond for the lava lamp and the cake and taking me out today to eat indian food... my throat hurts like fuck now and I feel 10 kg heavier but THANKS ALOT really.. love you guys man. And to the rest who were in the video, sen, andrew... you guys never fail to make me laugh.. i'm sure that's mostly ram's fault but you guys played a part.

Oh that includes Jared, Sarah and Shaun as well.. you guys were part of the video too!

And to those who were supposed to be in the video hmmm u can give me a impromptu performance when I meet you yea? hahaha..

Ram, Raymond and I went to catch simpsons after the indian cuisine and though it was short, I think it was rather well made. Slap Stick humour rocks!!!!

Anyways update on the sickness, I'm still not well, my throat really hurts and I always get like 38.something degree fevers in the night. I think I have dengue or throat cancer... lol if this continues, I'm gonna go see a doctor on monday pronto.

Oh and note for lovers : If you stretch out your hand and ask your lover that you really need to do this together, would they do it? this of course can be subjective like decorating the house, planning your wedding, letting the in laws stay over, it can be of any magnitude but the question is, WOULD THEY DO IT? What if they don't? and by some very weird coincidence you happen to die shortly after, would they regret their decision? I'm sure they would. It's just human! Humans think that hey they're always there for me or nah they'll find someone else to help them and go on with their own business. The weird thing is when the person that they love dies, they'll have all sorts of regrets and bring up stuff that I think the dead guy can't even remember! "I wish I helped her clean the rubbish", " I should have treated him better" or the most common one "I didn't get to say my last I love you" or something of the sort. All the shouldn't haves and the should haves start sprining out in your face and you end up crying not because you're sad that he or she is gone but you CRY BECAUSE YOU'RE GUILTY! well maybe a lil of both.

Lovers, treat your partners with respect and appreciation... cuz you never know when they might be gone! What I try to do is to have a day when I can look back and say I don't regret anything! can we live life like that? Aim for it and I'm sure it'll work out!

Another one of my deep days... now's the aspect of love, life and commitment... somewhat?

2007-07-26T10:29:00.000-07:00

ARGH.... my temperature was 38.4 last night and I was f-r-eeeeeeezing!

I realised something though. A small hint of the past was aroused last night not in the same context but close enough. The dumb fucks strikes again... and you could hear the desperation and the confusion and bewilderment in the choice voice. The dumb fucks won.... n i think to myself shivering in my bed that perhaps to the choice, I'm just there. I'm expandable... So the torrents of emotions came flooding in... the past all brought up to further enlighten me that I was a fool's child.

Priority tells a man what is most important to him and a woman is not spared. It is proven that when there's a fire in the building, people will automatically run and grab their most valued possessions before fleeing the house. This scenario is tentamount to recent events.. Let's jus say there was a painting in the wall and there was a bunch of holy fuck TARTS on the table. The mistress took the Fuck Tarts and didn't come back till much later when the fire had died down and tried to salvage the paining. It was a good painting no doubt. It was strong and survived the onslaught of fiery flames flicking its edges and enduring the heat in which it was enveloped. The painting was not spared from the smoke and soot though and was barely recognizable. Nothing a good wash wouldn't cure. The mistress fussed over the painting and brought it back to good shape but it could not help but have misgivings. It had been passed down from mistress to mistress a fair few times and oh how it loved this place it seemed different and the only place to be in. The number of times she looked at it when she wasn't feeling well and would brighten up because of the magnificent picture. It thought it'd be of the most importance but it was wrong very wrong indeed. It still hangs there for all to see but its on its guard again just waiting and observing. Oh let's not mention that humongous stack of books in the shelf. They look like they've been passed on from generation to generation and the mistress seems to treasure them as well. Why was the painting created? To be left on that wall and when it had served its purpose it would be taken down?

The fucking world is unfair. If you don't look out for yourself, you'll just be burned like the painting and if you can't take the burn and you perish... its going to be hard to make a new one. You look out for someone else but people don't notice you. What's the effing point? I should teach this to my sec 1 kids... educate them when they're young so that they won't fall prey to such misery and grief

Okay, that aside,
Happy Birthday to me... lol... Sick on my birthday woo wee... Thanks for the birthday cake baby! (she came at 12 midnight to sing me a birthday song with a cake in her hand. The candle wasn't lit up but it's the thought that counts... *muacks* thanks hon)

I'm too tired to blog anything else byeeeebyeeee!

2007-07-23T21:07:00.000-07:00

I'm SICK as well!!!!!

oh well but for what it's worth, I'm sick with BABY!!! Always look on the bright side eh?

I really want to blog bout harry potter and everything but perhaps when I'm feeling much better or something. I'm down with everything one usually gets one at a time.. flu, fever, cough and a sore throat... haha well done eh?

Oh well... I hope baby gets well soon!!! Or i'll have to come over and sayang her! I love you!! I need to be sayanged too...

2007-07-19T10:49:00.000-07:00

FUCK LA... the stupid teacher came... just cause one fucking chao chee bye went to email the teacher... You're A FUCKING CHAO CHEE BYE EUNICE.... A fucking chao chee bye. Machiam like you'll get better grades like that... FUCKING ugly FUCK! FLABBY ARMS..... weird teeth, big nose! I hope you fucking see this... Feel the anger and scold me... You'll FUCKING GET IT FROM ME... CHAO CHEE BYE....

.............

2007-07-19T09:26:00.000-07:00

HEY PEOPLE!!!!

My teacher isn't here today!!! yipeee! Another 3 more mins and we can leave the class! I can go and see baby later on! WOO HOO

The bitch is here though and she's super fucked up.... URGH

Baby don't sad already ok? You look great! I swear!

DRIVING LESSONS ARE OVER!!!! Now I'm left with the driving test... hope I can miraculously get an early slot... just one last step until I get that license! I'm really waiting in anticipation... sorry I seem so high but I'm really excited and happy... I completed all 30modules in 18lessons and have not met any accident or whatever. I think when I pass I won't be so cautious already... who knows? lol...

Faisal, Farhana, Alex and I are going to Ngee Ann Poly to recee the place for our video comp! Alright!!! haha things are going smoothly and nicely at the moment.

Everyone wondering why Jamie and James can last so long together well a few pointers
- Unconditional Love
- Trust
- Affection
- Care
- Humour
- Mutual Understanding (sometimes) lol

Basic guidelines to a blooming and wonderful relationship that will last forever and ever and ever!!!! I love her!

2007-07-16T11:04:00.000-07:00

I'm thinking about the zoo
I'm thinking about mew mew
I'm thinking about the time you had the flu
I'm just thinking about you you you
I love you you you
Let's go to the zoo zoo zoo

2007-07-15T17:01:00.000-07:00

Happy 18TH Birthday Honey!

Glad you're Happy with everything. At least now you know that people didn't forget.

Love you

okay so now next on the agenda, I still fuckin hate you people... fuckin hoggers.
Balls....... mid afternoon.... Balls.......
Understand, understand, understand.....

Fucking christ.... I'm such a fool... a real big one....

Devil : Why don't you spoil everything and do something better?
Fool : Nah
Devil : You'll steal the lime light!
Fool : But that's not supposed to be the point
Devil : You're a real fool!

Yea.... a real fool....

Dad says : The trouble with you is that you always love them more.....

2007-07-10T10:49:00.000-07:00

Oh happy days....

Good luck with your modelling thing baby!

2007-07-07T22:15:00.000-07:00

Maybe... Perhaps... Could be... Possibly

Whatever

Stop la okay? Stop it dammit... you people should go fuck yourselves really. I don't give a rat's ass what you people might think. I HATE YOU!

Almost done with everything.... yay... so tired physically, mentally and emotionally.... PERHAPS spiritually as well?

I was thinking of coming up with a poem to convey the feelings in me but nah seriously, screw it. I have to let my mind rest once in awhile.... it needs to breathe... among other things. So I shall just let it rest for now... relax and enjoy life.

2007-07-05T13:14:00.000-07:00

Yo!

I'm gonna try and change my blog song to the Transformers theme!

Going to eat pasta mania with baby today... finally some time alone!!! yay! I miss you lover!

Melvin just gave the crew an opportunity to shine... there's this competition coming up for film makers and I guess we're going to join and i'm confident that we can win... definitely. Deadline's 31st august so if anyone's interested I'll let you see it once we're done with it k? You be the judge of our talent.

Soooooo today we're discussing about how IKEA uses art as part of their identity and its supposedly an easy topic today but I beg to differ thank you. haha see you!

2007-07-01T21:24:00.000-07:00

alright,

1. Transformers is some cool stuff you people should go check it out

2. I had fun once again with baby during our short sweet escape over the weekend

3. Thanks to everyone for helping out with the skit today. I think it was a success.

Other than that, I'm not in a very good mood at the moment.

Bye

2007-06-26T19:44:00.000-07:00

FUCKING CHAO CHEE BYE

FUCKING BULL SHIT....

yea the finish line is like up ahead but I seem to blend in with the surroundings... an insignificant person amongst all the other people clamouring to touch the winner of the race... the one man race or woman so to speak. The participant pays no heed to me and gives me the look of utter contempt as if I were a bug that was not meant to be. I have been waiting here like a fool... for this. Life isn't fair... all of us should run away from our problems... it supposedly works. BUT I SAY BALLOCKS......

silence is golden my ass....

2007-06-25T10:22:00.000-07:00

Be it Yio Chu Kang to Khatib or Khatib to Yio Chu Kang, I'll never fail to fall asleep during that time because its long and I don't know what else but I'll always fall asleep haha...

Oh and baby starts her exam today! Good luck baby! I believe you can do very well after all that studying... the finish line is coming! I'll be there k baby?

I have a frigging sore eye now.... its like superly pain.... sigh... but I CAME TO SCHOOL!!! haha

2007-06-24T02:08:00.000-07:00

Fucking picture is gone

Fucking driving lessons now so fucking expensive with the FUCKING GST raise

Fucking shouldn't have said anything

Fucking alone

Fucking....... ah fuck it!

2007-06-21T19:49:00.000-07:00

life is good at the moment for some but I beg to differ

Weeeeeeeee!

KIDS! we're living a masquerade called life! It's all a facade! The secondary ones probably understand this if I told them anyways. I'd be surprised if they did...

BAH!

...bye...

2007-06-17T18:07:00.000-07:00

Finally, school has started and I'm in class now. Feel so effing tired and hungry. I'm often getting these pangs of hunger lately. Oh well, ate the 2 dollar meal at Macs though. Okay here's the worthwhile deal for you Singaporeans. DO NOT ORDER A HASHBROWN with your 2 dollar meal if you're hungry. If you're hungry order TWO 2 dollar meals and its so much more worth it!

The last few days of my hols were quite cool. It was Raymond's birthday on Saturday and we went DRINKING!!! lol... The fella got frigging drunk and puked all his beef noodles in the toilet baisin. Thereafter, Ram and the birthday boy slept over at my place.

I'm learning about heroism today.... how do you portray heroism? My god so chim la... firstly, there are various categories of heros and someone's hero might be someone else's terrorist. Cool huh? That's what I've gathered so far. My group's talking about King David and Sir Lancelot. Should be easier compared to Vishnu and Socrates I guess.

Went to church yesterday with baby... Father said "all those married fathers stand up for the blessing" because it was father's day lol so I couldn't stand up but haha baby wished me!!!! I'm going to become a daddy! Don't worry I've not made her pregnant... its more charity work I guess (to quote baby) After mass, my grandparents came over and we went to Sake Sushi to eat. It was the first time in my life I ate one of those red plates.... and I ate alot alot!!! Then slept all the way until the night.

Oh oh oh oh and my sweet lover bought me something on saturday! She bought me a t shirt and cologne from FCUK. When I went to meet her at the "get together" park, she hid the thing under her jacket and then TA DA!!! hahaa love you baby! Thanks for everything! moooarghs.... weeeeeee haha so high.

I want to eat somemore... sigh fat fat fat.

2007-06-13T18:36:00.000-07:00

one word - FUCK

two words - FUCKING HELL

three words - WHAT THE FUCK

four words - SHUT THE FUCK UP

That's what fuck can be used for... I was thinking of the 5 words thing but it all starts to become hokkien already so its not really counted.

Hmm... not a great holiday for me but who cares right? I went overseas though and I guess that was the epitome of my holidays.

Glad you found what you wanted... n i'm not part of it. woof woof *wags tail* whatever.....

FUCKING FAKE FUCKERS...

2007-05-27T20:15:00.000-07:00

Basically if you bother interpretting the pictures then these are what I feel and everything. Right now... too lazy to blog so I thought pictures could do a good representation of my current feelings. Maybe I'll laugh at them someday.

nite!

2007-05-26T23:55:00.000-07:00

Today was superly FUNNY... had to attend a friend's function and I went with Ram and Raymond!! I came late as usual but I wouldn't have been sooooo late if not for those FUCKERS that kept walking in front of me to take cabs. FUCK YOU PEOPLE who did that! So anyways, met them at J8 and we ended up walking around, eating and drinking coffee. The weird part was that we were dressed up in formal wear.. Imagine Ram in one.

OH OH OH this is fucking hilarious but Ram said that since he was wearing formal, he wanted to bring a fountain pen along to go along with his style but instead he brought along a ball point pen haha Ray had a great laugh about that.

Then we went for the function and took loads of pictures I mean seriously friggin funny pictures hahahaha shall post it on monday when I get it from Ram.

Then headed to baby's house to eat dinner and watch letter from Ioa Jima quite a draggy and *yawns* show but just wanted to spend time with her... that's all.

Sigh.. bye...

2007-05-22T23:14:00.000-07:00

My right leg hurts like hell!!!! I think it was soccer. It feels like I pulled a muscle or something and I think I did! Raising my leg has become a chore and I'm walking with a slight limp at the moment. I need that super hot rub on oils for muscle aches... but nah I shall rely on my own recovery system.

So today I went to school for UT and it was pretty darn simple that's all I can say. I expect a B or higher! lol... Then I went for the Professional Profilling Workshop. I learnt SWOT... Okay basically, I have this one module where I have to do a 2000 word thesis on a company in Singapore (preferably course related) and SWOT would be Strengths, Weaknesses, Opportunities and threats. Have to talk about that among other things and we also have to interview a person from that company. So I'm still unsure of which company I'm gonna choose but I need to come up with one by 30th May or I'm screwed.

After the talk, we chilled out in the library for awhile and I finally have Prison Break season 2 on my lap top!!! So baby, hurry come see see k? I just don't have episode 18.

OH OH then here's the best part, after that we went to the fun fair near woodlands MRT station, bought some burgers and went to tour all the rides that were up. Seriously quite cool man, I mean everywhere you go you'll hear techno blasting into your ears and the worse thing is that they don't play the same song so it becomes kinda messed up but looking at the rides and everything, it was quite interesting. There's a haunted house too! But I didn't take a picture of it. The rides are kinda ex though... 10 bucks for the more popular ones and 5 bucks for the average ones. I took a few pictures with my phone so here they are!

Thereafter, we walked around Causeway to look for something and I managed to find a shop that sells urbanish kinda knick knacks. (Wood-based lamps, photo frames etc) Think when I have money I'll get some of those to furnish my room to make it look better and more homely for baby and me! yay!!!

I miss my girlfriend! SO SO SO SO MUCH!

2007-05-21T16:50:00.000-07:00

We tricked ram into eating pork again today. I told him that the pork belly was chicken liver cuz we were eating chicken rice and I felt like tricking him once again. At first he was cautious then he tasted it and claimed that it was good... after awhile I got tired of his snail pace of eating and forced the rest of the pork into his mouth. When he heard it was pork he was like "what the fuck!" hahaha he's always so darn funny.

I'm quite sad at the moment. My baby's gonna be a model for her module project thingy. She has to hold another guy's hand!!!!! SIGH so darn sad la. But she needs it for CCA points yea then I guess I'll just bear with it. She says he's a pretty boy!!!!! sigh... why must they put the pretty boy with the prettiest gal HUH HUH HUH? sigh....

Just finished UT... I think i'm gonna go play soccer. Bye people!

I LOVE MY GIRLFRIEND!!!!!

2007-05-17T15:19:00.000-07:00

Had a great time at "The Phantom of the Opera" Seriously enjoyed myself with baby. We dressed super formaly and looked like those mature couples you see on television! The singing was good and the effects of everything were superb.

I know its a lil late updating but better late than never yea?

Been pon-ing class with Ram Kumar again. He and I went to catch 28 weeks later. Not a bad show just that they turned to zombies super fast compared to Resident Evil. I'd rate it 3/5.

Fiak that driving instructor! Fucking bastard.. car no 99 sucks to the core! CB... sigh i'll pass driving soon! yay!

Yesterday was an a-ok day. Had dinner at baby's place after driving lesson. I think that our relationship has become stronger through various stuff... be it good or bad. I feel so happy!

2007-05-10T20:18:00.000-07:00

Okay so basically, I’m in bed right now and leeching off some idiot’s wireless. I’m too lazy to go out and connect my lap top to the modem. I just feel so happy and in love right now. My baby girl and I just celebrated our 7th month together!!!!

Well first, I skipped school again and this is the last time I’m going to skip science or Ram will kill me. Then met Ram and my girl at woodlands before heading down to marina square to bowl. Ram says that he finally learnt how to bowl but he hates bowling because his ball has an affiliation with the gutter! Baby didn’t do too badly as well.. she was better than me when I first started playing. I on the other hand played like crap. I mean its been awhile since I last played but damn, boy do I suck now.

After bowling, we went to the arcade for awhile to play para para (I maneuvered baby’s arms… lol) So anyways, that was fun. Then we headed to Pizza Hut to eat the student set lunch meal. It’s seriously a great deal. Like a bowl of soup, a drink and a small pan pizza for 6.95!!! So we ordered 3 sets and a plate of garlic bread and buffalo wings. Altogether it came up to about 30? The service charge was really well deserved I must say. The waitress kept asking us how was our food and gave us warm water because it was a chilly day and she also gave my girl a glass of warm water with a slice of lemon inside because she was coughing. We thought of giving her a tip but heck, we’re students!!!!

So after food, Ram decided that he had enough for one day and he headed home. Baby and I went to Plaza to watch “Bridge to Terabithiya” It’s quite a good movie. I’d rate it 3 and a half stars. I mean I’m not gonna spoil it for you people but could hear many people crying during a certain part in the show.

I must say that it sounds like a normal way to spend our 7th month but don’t forget that tomorrow we’re both going to watch “the phantom of the opera”!!! I think its going to be so cool and we’ll definitely enjoy ourselves. To add, I think no matter how normal it is, so long as I’m with baby everything is fun and the best thing is that we enjoy each other’s company.

2007-05-09T21:10:00.000-07:00

This is what's happening tonight! Man Utd might not win because they've already won the English Premiere League but heck I hope they trash Chelsea nonetheless. I'm seriously contemplating of catching the match but then again I should go to school... sigh decisions decisions.

Anyways I've been skippin like 2-3 days of school so far and I've got to stop. Especially with science cuz that's the module that I'm retaking. Ram and I have been skipping class for no apparent reason and that's bad. Speaking of Ram, that's one friend you dont' see often. It's very rare to make a good friend when you're in RP because everyone's always changing classes and you dont' usually stay in touch. Ram on the other hand values friendship alot and he makes a real good buddy even though we always laugh at him and tease him. Looking at my life in RP, I'd say that he's the best friend ever and I just gotta say thanks for everything mr Kumar!

I'm at my girl's place blogging. She's doing her work and I have nothing to do so I thought I'd blog before leaving the vicinity.

BABY!!

Put your heart at ease

My love is only entitled to you you you!!!

Those thoughts will always be there

but I just wanna tell you

that I'll never break your heart

I'll always be here

Till the end of my time at least

You're the best and always will be

I'd be a fool if I ever let you go

So baby,

Have faith in me me me!!!

I love you!

HAPPY 7TH MONTH IN ADVANCE HONEY!!!!

2007-05-02T19:00:00.000-07:00

Alright brief update time!!!

Baby's sleeping at the moment and she's feeling sick... rest well and drink lotsa water k baby? I'll personally come down and nurse you back to health after school tml!

We went to watch Spiderman 3 with Ram today... my girl's like the sweetest! She isn't really much of a spiderman fan but she went to watch it with me nonetheless and she said it was a good movie. Ok so my review will be a lil biased but heck I give it 5/5 STARS!!!! I mean the plot thickens and the villians are super cool and the only bad thing bout the movie is that they could have done abit more on the romance part. Oh well EVERYONE should go and watch it... seriously good stuff.

Oh and I'm more than half way through my driving already I'll probably pass in like a month or so if i'm lucky to get an early practical test slot. I'm doing rather well and if all goes smoothly, I'll be driving by my gal's birthday. YAY!!!!

Nights people.

2007-04-22T17:26:00.000-07:00

FOR FUCK SAKE man... I hate the whole fucking WORLD!

as if things aren't bad enough huh? FUCKING CHRIST!

i'm gonna detach myself from the world now. Bye.

2007-04-16T22:01:00.000-07:00

today was the first day of school. My classmates are alright I guess. Never really talked to them much cept my group mates. The only pisser thing was that I found out that my 4 day week was allegedly taken away from my possession and I was forced into retaking my science module this sem!!! fug man... tml have to go school... Oh well on a brighter note, RAM KUMAR is gonna be my classmate again and Ms Joyce's my faci!

I look forward to school also because that's when I can see my baby! I send her to school and then back when it all ends. (thank goodness for concession! heh) I love you baby!

Anyways, today's lesson was rather interesting. We were given 12 art pieces and asked to classify them under the theme "But is it art?" So firstly, we had to define art

Something is classified as an art piece when
- It has an impact on people
- The number of people that can relate to it
- The degree of appreciation for it
- Whether it played or plays a part in the past or present respectively

It is not a piece of art when
- It has a primary objective
- It merely excites the senses

Sometimes these two can co exist for example: Plays (its a form of art and it is art but it has a primary objective of earning money from audiences)

It's really interesting to talk about though it might sound boring but ask this to yourself with respect from the above information.

Qn: If art is defined as that wouldn't graffiti be an art? I mean in a way yes its vandalism and some people do not appreciate it (especially cleaners) but it can have an impact on other people that view it and feel the angst and hatred that the vandal feels so therefore they can relate. But its primary objective is to prove that they exist and be a rebel. What has that got to do with anything about art? But then again if you look at it in a different perspective, it can be art too can it not? I think it all boils down to each individual and how they perceive what art is. I've been asking myself this question over and over trying to get an answer and I have come to the conclusion that art is art if it fulfills the requirements from above to them.

Oh well interesting lesson yea?

2007-04-15T19:37:00.000-07:00

Alright, let me give a brief summary of what’s happened over the week so far before bloody school starts.

Monday
Went with my girlfriend to night safari, the place where our relationship started. But this time, we went in and saw the animals as well. We also ate at Bongo Burger and sat at the exact same table we sat in 6 months ago. The animals were hard to spot but we found most of them in the end and she didn’t dare walk the leopard trail so we just took the tram ride twice and walked around the less shady areas. Thanks for fetching us Chee Wee.. really appreciated

Tue
My girl and I went to watch shooter and we also went to K box to sing at suntec. It was fun just the two of us singing and laughing… very fun indeed. Thereafter, we went to drink at some pub near MOS with tony, chng and nelson.

Wed
She and I went to eat New York New York at the new mall at Ang Mo Kio Hub. I ate the meatball spaghetti and she ate the black pepper ribs. Very sinful and I definitely put on some weight but what the heck it was good food and we enjoyed ourselves pretty much. Then we went to NTUC to buy stuff for her mom and we had fun with the trolleys as well.

Friday
We went to the “Bottle Tree Park” at Kathib to prawn with Jared and Shaun and we caught like 15 prawns in 2hours plus. I know it’s a small amount but what the heck we’re not pros or anything like that. It was a really good experience and after that we took pictures of the bottle trees there. It’s a really good place to bring your date next time. It’s serene and scenic which makes the atmosphere very romantic. So keep that in mind people. Then after prawning, she and I went back to her place to cook the prawns and we dropped by gardens to buy durians and rent a movie (“The Departed”) The prawns tasted alright I guess considering it’s the first time I’m cooking prawns on the stove and the movie was very interesting indeed

Sat
Bugis Street!!!! Yea had to go there to find some stuff for my dad and a bag for myself. She also had a few things she wanted to buy so we just walked around a lot trying to find those things. Well we found most of it in the end and I even ended up buying 3 pairs of boxers. A good day indeed.

Sunday
Well that’s today and here’s where we enter a grey area. I mean school’s starting like tomorrow and its not like I’m not being realistic and I want the holidays to continue. I mean I want it but I know it won’t happen and we have to study and all that. That’s what the brain says anyways but you can’t stop your heart from feeling a little sad right? So just wanted to make the best of the “last day” and just be happy with each other’s company. Spent most of the day watching heros and then went to chill at her clubhouse. FUCK YOU BLACK FUCK… FUCK YOU WEATHER… why the fuck must I suffer cuz of you FUCKS… FUCKING DAY… DAY OF THE FUCKING SABBATH.. WHICH MOTHER FUCK THOUGHT ABOUT THAT? LAME ASS FUCK! Tmd man TMD!

Thanks for the week baby! Good luck with school. I love you!

2007-04-05T13:53:00.000-07:00

YEA? well that makes 2 of us now doesn't it?

It's surprising how a nice cheerful conversation can turn so sour in a matter of seconds.

Fucked up!

The more i think the more i get angry so fuck thinking...

The number of cuss words I wanna spout now are unimaginable... Balls man...

2007-04-04T20:25:00.000-07:00

Alright baby and I went to the library today and to my surprise, I found 2 books related to filming! "Filming for Dummies" (lol... it doesn't mean anything mind you) and some other digital video book. It was a good thing we went to the library in the end cuz I need those books for future reference. Who knows when I might need it eh? I was not rather keen on going to the library in the first place but I guess it turned out alright in the end.

Before that we took a trip to the bank cuz my girl had to transfer cash to the person we bought the tops from and she needed to withdraw money for her sister. After that, we went to sakae sushi to eat sushi.. duh right? Thanks for lunch baby!!!!

Hmm so after the library we were both carrying loads of books (I ended up carrying most of them in the end... lol) and we went to the new mall at Ang Mo kio... Real niffty place they have there.. its like quite big as well and there are loads of shops open already. I'll explore the place with you a lil more thoroughly when I'm not carrying books ok baby?

Speaking about books, I've been reading the "Filming for dummies" rather intently and I've discovered some important things about film making. Firstly, you need an investor... and that sucks... who would want to invest in me anyways? Then at the end, you need a distributor to promote your film and stuff. That sucks as well cuz to me it all seems so unreal... those few terms seem very grown up to me and I guess i'm still a boy after all. But i'll work my ass off to achieve that dream! I guess i'll be starting small first... wanna persue that screenplay that was in my mind since last year. I can see areas in which I can improve on already... don't be fooled by the title of the book! It's not what it seems!

2007-04-03T08:28:00.000-07:00

Alright! haha a new blog skin done by none other than my loving girlfriend Jamie Tay! Isn't she like the best? Thanks baby! was contemplating whether I should blog or not but I think my girlfriend deserved the credit for all the effort put into this... so here I am.

Oh i caught the trailer for this new action flick "shooter" and it looks super cool. It's coming out on the 5th of April if i'm not wrong and I'm gonna drag baby to watch it.

I went over to my gal's house today and we were looking through online sprees... everything there looks rather tempting and its cheaper compared to buying it off the shelf in S'pore. I told her that when we're older I rather shop in the comfort of my own home than mingle with the irritating crowd in town or what not.. and she said that's why there's online shopping.. for people like me.. lol.

And Just a few minutes ago, I was blog surfing and I found out this really cool place that I'd like to take the love of my life to. So gimme a date when you're free baby! Don't forget to bring along your camera! We'll take many many pictures once again!

Ah yes, the 3rd of April... Which happens to be Yvelyn's Birthday!!! It's been celebrated quite a number of times already but heck I'll wish you again! Thanks for being a great friend though I've known you for like less than a year and Thanks for being our mother figure. heh... I think you need to exercise more to keep up with me. Have a good day and may your 18th birthday be as swell as this one! (if this wasn't swell enough then hope it will be better!!)

2007-03-29T00:17:00.000-07:00

We usually praise taxi drivers when they swerve in from the center lane and cut into the left lane to pick us up don’t we? Now, I curse any taxi driver who does that because simply put, I was driving on the left lane when a smart taxi driver decided to cut into my lane and pick up a passenger. Well it was nothing much. I just nearly caused an accident after jamming the break with extreme force. Balls! Nothing much my balls! Well I’m glad it wasn’t my fault or anything but it did attract some unwanted attention.

Then after driving, which was at 8.30, I went to the police station to collect my old computer back! Age has caught up with it though being chucked away in that storeroom for years and it’s turned yellow. Oh well, I’m lucky I have my lap top now and my dad says he’ll find a way to use the old com. Good luck to him. Thanks a bunch Ben for helping me carry the stuff. I couldn’t have done it without you.

Then my baby girl came over to my place and she gave me her “sorry present” which was this card with a super-ly sweet poem at the back! You think that’s all? NO! The front had this copper wire folded into the words “I LOVE YOU” how sweet is that? I mean seriously no girl has ever done that for me before and no words can describe the waves of happiness that swept through my entire being when I read the poem. Thanks for everything baby! You’re the best! You make my life so bright and colorful and happy and fun and everything else that’s positive!

Okay before I get ahead of myself and start jumping around in ecstasy I better continue. So we went to watch “the messengers” which wasn’t really great but had a lot of shocking parts. My girl said something cute in the show though “Baby, if you scare me I’ll get angry with you” HAHA I wasn’t intending on scaring her though. Then we went for confession at church together and headed to the park next to her condo. We sat at the exact same spot that we first told each other about our feelings for each other and we reminisced about the past 6 months and our constant and growing love for each other. It was really nice just sitting there with her lying on my lap and just talking about everything. I mean that’s what a good girlfriend is about right? Being your lover and your best friend and that is what she totally is! N I love her for it! *jumps jumps jumps*

2007-03-27T21:18:00.000-07:00

Last night was productive. Jared and Gerard visited my place and we had a nice long talk about everything and of course draining down a mouth of whiskey with coke every once in awhile during the process. My girl felt a little neglected by me because most of the time when she wants to talk to me at night, I’m with friends and I know it can be frustrating at times but I do try to talk to you as long as I can baby! It won’t happen that frequently anymore k?

Probably hit the sacks at around 8am and had to wake up at 9am to wake my gal up. Knowing how long she takes to doll herself up, I decided to sleep a lil longer with that phrase “just 15 more minutes” which led to 2 hours mind you. Of course she got a lil mad and everything but I was really tired and when it comes to her, I don’t usually let this sort of thing happen.

Anyhow, the sun was great when we started tanning! Just lay on the tanning benches and talked about anything and took loads of pictures. She’s still sleeping as I type so I’ll probably get the pictures from her later or something. It was really fun and I want to do it again sometime soon. It was great to just bask under the sun with her company. I really couldn’t ask for more.

2007-03-24T21:34:00.000-07:00

The word “bliss” is a word which is not commonly used in present day. I’ve yet to come across a friend or acquaintance who has used the word bliss in any of our conversations. Well I guess I’m digressing but the word “bliss” means a state of perfect untroubled happiness. I clearly fall under that category at the moment and I could not ask for more or I’d be a greedy man. With the minor exception of that sad excuse of a guy, yes I clearly fall under that category and I’m proud to proclaim it to the world!

Why? Well I assume you’ve got me all figured out and I don’t doubt you’re powers of deduction but it defeats the purpose of me blogging now would it? The whole reason leads down to one person in the long run but obviously I’m not an ingrate who forgets his friends. So that one person would be my darling girlfriend. She’s handled her temperamental boyfriend with much patience and understanding and I thank you for it baby! Over the past week or so, I’ve been experiencing pangs of jealousy and it would have eaten me internally if she had not reassured me in her own way and made me feel considerably better. Jealousy is a dangerous thing. If not handled with care, something might break and being an ignoramus at the start of relationship, I didn’t really understand what it was or how to deal with it until it hit me squarely in the face. I feel immense guilt at how I treated her when she was feeling the exact same thing I felt. I treated it with disdain and got exasperated at how she was feeling but now I know that it takes more than words to soothe the beast called jealousy and I’ll never leave you alone okay baby?

These two days have been rather tiring but yet extremely fun I must say. Just yesterday my girl and I went to watch Teenage mutant ninja turtles and just a note to eager people intending to watch it; the storyline is a let down but the animation is wicked! So you do the pros and cons on whether it’s worth watching. I wanted to watch it mainly because as a young kid I loved the turtles but it was a let down. What matters though was that I enjoyed my time with my girl. Just before the movie, we visited the new arcade at Junction 8 and played the whacky shooter game. She also bought me this really funky big headed wooden boy and she got the girl version and its hanging on my phone as we speak. Thanks baby!

In the night, like all normal girlfriends, she had to head home and I met Jared (who has passed his driving license by the way. So if you haven’t congratulated him, do so now.) we drove to Melvin’s house to play a few games of audition before sending Gail home and heading down to Seletar Reservoir to drink and have a rather fruitful chat. We probably headed home around 5 in the morning feeling weary and all.

As for today, I met with my girl again at around 11. She said her dad was fetching her to Junction 8 and I was seriously wondering like why couldn’t we have gone together and she told me to leave the house at 10.45 when her dad was fetching her at 10.30. So I was rather grumpy when I arrived at the station. I called her and she claimed that she was sitting at KFC and upon reaching there, I couldn’t find her anywhere. So I called her once again and I was rather irritated but when she reached she had this big plastic bag with this soft toy dog in it! I mean obviously I couldn’t help but smile right? It also came complete with a cute card that said “I love you” (the rest are for my viewing pleasure only) Just the day before while we were walking around Junction 8 I saw the dog and told her that this was the kind of material I like a soft toy to have and she bought it for me today! I love you baby! Like so so so much! Then, we went to Bugis and walked around the mall for like many hours (to me) My feet were aching by the time we sat down at KFC to eat. She bought like a pink wallet for her sister’s friend’s birthday present and a pair of sunglasses which totally looks cool on her…. and me. LOL! Then we went to Bugis Street and she bought this dark brown bag which I personally said was nice compared to the rest of the bags on which she sought my opinion and yes she bought it. At this point, my feet were like killing me so we headed home.

It’s been a great day but what am I saying? Everyday spent with her is a great day even though there are arguments and quarrels but the best thing about it is that we’re both trying very hard to work it out and fight our inner battles to better understand and suit each other and that is the spirit to a long and ever lasting relationship right baby?

2007-03-22T06:33:00.000-07:00

i can't sleep...

I feel like I can't do anything...

No one to talk to...

These thoughts are driving me crazy

I trust you...

I don't want the same thing to happen to me...

I love you....

FUCKER! if you ever read this which i hope you will..... I hope you rot in hell... U hear me? Don't screw around with me... the only reason why you're not dead is cuz i'm a nice guy.. Hands off you hear me! HANDS OFF! You think you're god's gift to women? All SHUAI and everything... I spit on ur picture and I'd spit on your face if you give me the chance. Don't think I don't realize your fucking plan... u snide son of a bitch... Go screw around with some other gal and destroy some other guy's life for all i care... FUCK YOU understand! FUCK YOU! So what if you play basketball? So what if you're in JC? So what if you're good looking? It all doesn't matter if you don't have the fucking balls to talk to me and say what you feel in my fucking face... You hide at the side waiting for your chance.... I swear to GOD... if you don't come out soon and continue slipping and sliding around like FUCKING SNAKE, i'll pull you out and castrate you so that your children, and your children's children will not be from your fucking family line.

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pop goes my heart......

2007-03-12T01:43:00.000-07:00

Alright its high time I stopped being lazy and start blogging bout the trip since the girls already did so. I'll give a more detailed version though... the pictures will have to wait cuz my girl and Sarah are still holding on to them... send them soon ok? All in all, I would say we had a very eventful and enriching trip... it was certainly an experience to all of us... especially me cuz this would be my first time going on a trip with friends... what more my girlfriend.

Day 1

I'd say that spirits were rather high and everyone was looking forward to our trip.. Jared, Melvin and I cracking silly jokes as usual while the girls took pictures... I mean its not like we didn't join in the photo taking... There's a cam whore in all of us... yes... even you the fat dude who's picking his nose right now and looking at this. See I was thinking bout something amazing on the ferry ride there... which was about 2 hours long mind you... You see, Bintan is like 1 hour behind Singapore time right? so.... if we took 2 hours to get there, wouldn't it be that we took 1 hour to get there instead? and then the ferry ride back would have taken 3 hours right? I voiced my opinions to the rest but I got shot down instead... sigh... but its rather interesting no?

Oh wells... upon our arrival, things looked rather shabby... it was like slum city man... everyone was just staring at you and eyeing you like you did something wrong.. or they might have been thinking that we looked good to murder or smth... I swear.. it was rather scary... I held on to my lover's hand and didn't let go... one more thing bout Bintan is the weather... my gosh its like super hot there but good for tanning... and no I didn't get a tan.

We took another boat ride to our kelong resort and at least there was air con in our rooms! The resort however looked a lil dead to me... there were very lil people around and it just gave it a creepy feeling. I cast that thought aside though cuz I was with my girl and nothing could spoil that mood. Melvin was rather pitiful though... I mean he was the odd one out being alone and all and he had a room all by himself as well.. so we trooped to his room after getting aqquainted with our respective rooms first of course and we played cards. We were also supposed to eat dinner at the resort at first but someone said that we should go to the mainland and eat so at around 7 plus? We took a boat to the mainland and seriously, the streets there aren't really lit properly and all and there are like people staring at you from alleys and shop houses so suddenly we seem all alone and vulnerable. Okay I admit, I was scared I'd get mugged or something cuz I brought like close to 1 million rupiah... EH I MADE MY FIRST MILLION WHEN I WAS 18!!!! haha ok not funny but yea it was freaky and I kept getting hallucinations bout some of them knocking me out and disrespecting my girlfriend... so I kept a tight hold on her and made sure she did not leave my sight.

We ate dinner at this coffee shop that was shoing "the arena" haha they have channel 5 there people! The reception was quite clear as well.... but that's not important. What's important is dinner man... I swear dinner was GREAT!!! for like 200 000 rupiah or was it cheaper? We had like Chilli Crab, Hot Plate Tofu, Fish Steamboat, Sambal KangKong, Baby Kai Lan and rice... that's like ABOUT 40 bucks for 5 people and making them all FULL!!! Can you believe that shit? And we're not talking bout low grade kinda stuff... it was genuinely good food!

Sleeping wasn't that difficult... I mean I don't usually sleep so early but when there's nothing to do and nothing to watch on tv, you tend to end up feeling rather sleepy in the end. So I slept with my baby girl in my arms, feeling like this was the best day of my life.

Day 2

Gosh rather long entry this is gonna be no? Oh well I have time so I'll just rant and rant and rant. Day 2 was like the most tiring day of all... I swear. I mean we had fun definitely but it was rather tiring cuz on this day we went SHOPPING!

We woke up like rather late.. As in Jamie and I... she being she and I being I... We also had a tour guide who was like super nice and all and I tried conversing with him in english and by far, he has like the best command in english from all the commoners I've seen. We went to two malls and bought a couple of stuff... I bought a belt and a Levi's t shirt. Baby bought me a pair of adidas sunglasses... THANKS BABY... its like super cool la... and I gave her frequent surprises every now and then... which I know she's super happy about... I love you!!! She also bought a handbag for her mom and a pair of jeans for herself... Melvin bought like this couple bear thingy for Gail... Later on I saw this Levi's Belt and I cursed myself for buying the belt that I bought... now when I look at it I think its rather ugly but oh well i'm still gonna wear it cuz I bought it... haha and my girlfriend's bargaining skills were put to the test there haha I kept asking her to bargain for me... *grinz* it usually went down by 10000 rupiah or so... unless some bastard told you "fixed price" then you stared at the fella and said "OKAY..!" lol... I also bought like 2 animes which the others said was stupid cuz I could get checked by customs. Oh well since when did I care bout rules anyway?

Oh for lunch we ate at like KFC... they only have one in Tanjong Pinang... and its like the grandest building there... They still sell the Twister down there but they don't have cheese fries and they don't have pop corn chicken nor do they have whipped potato... instead your meal comes with the chicken and a drink and a ball of rice. Cool huh?

After everything was done and all, we headed back to our resort and just waited for dinner time. Dinner was cool I mean the food wasn't that great and this time it cost bout 300 000 plus cuz I ordered a bottle of wine... I mean seriously, its so difficult to find alcohol there and the mood was so nice cuz like they tried to give us this "fine dining by the sea" atmosphere which was rather romantic so I thought wine would be a good drink for the occassion... but nah in the end I drank like most of it... They had karaoke there as well and we sung to our hearts content... this time we had like butter prawns, prawn omellete, sambal kankong and steam fish (can't really remember much cuz it wasn't that great)

After dinner we just went straight to bed... seriously it was a damn shaggadalic day so sleep didn't come much of a problem be it if there was something to do or not.

Day 3

We checked out to book into the hotel that we were supposed to be staying on day 4 cuz we just felt like it and it would be less of a bother to go to the mainland. The hotel was cool I mean the air con was like really cold but they didn't have a bath tub... oh well beggars can't be choosers as quoted from Jared the wise. The tv reception was good and I spent quite a long while watching old flicks on HBO.... the food at the restaurant below was good as well.. I mean it couldn't beat the first day but yea it was quite alright... Oh did I mention that I was smoking like crazy? I mean seriously one pack there is like less than 2 bucks!!! What the hell man.... smoke fest!!! much to the displeasure of my girlfriend of course but its just once in awhile k baby?

This day was fun as well cuz we went for a massage... not the dirty kind of massage of course! Really relaxing stuff... Baby and I had the couple room and we got a massage together... it cost like a mere 16 bucks compared to a 40 dollar one in s'pore... madness... FUCK THE TAX... okay sorry for my outburst. Sarah and Jared took a longer time cuz they bought some special package which included some exfoliatiing bath thing... So we took the liberty to go to the nearby mall and look around for stuff... this mall was rather disappointing however cuz they didn't really have much to offer... like most of the t shirts were all very indo ah beng kinda style and my girlfriend didn't approve... but at least there was an arcade which was super stuffy and what made it worse was that she and I played DDR together looking like two loving idiots while melvin just watched.

Waiting for them was like super long... we even had time to eat at this place called "charlie's chicken" and baby stole the old coke bottle which we didn't noe we had to give back. Charlie's Chicken is something like KFC but I don't know there's something missing... oh well but it was nice anyways.

After that we just felt like taking a swim in the pool but it was filled with moss and mosquitoes so Jared, Melvin and I were the only ones ending up playing in the baby pool for awhile (Jamie and Sarah were watching of course) before going up to bathe. For dinner, we ordered room service and the food was once again quite good... I had a beef burger and I'm sorry I never offered you more baby!!! she also ordered pepper crab, sambal kangkong and I added a mee goreng... OBVIOUSLY we didn't manage to finish all of it and we messed up the unused bed pretty badly I must say...

Guess what happens next??? SLEEP!!!! I gotta say that with that kinda lifestyle there, I really needed the jog that I just went for... I think i gained weight.. oh well what the heck so long as my baby loves me....

Day 4

We decided to cut our trip short due to overwhelming expenses... our lifestyle was too lavish there I guess... but there's a catch. Sarah's dad came over... and caught us all. Heh Long story and I'm not gonna say it but I didn't dare look at him in the eye... Thank god for the sunglasses... Oh and Baby... I will never ever react the way I did on this day ever again... I remember your reaction and then I feel a pang in my heart... I feel guilt and I feel angry with myself. I swear I'll change okay? No matter how long it takes, I'll change.. cuz I love you and I don't wanna see you sad or feel that I'm a lousy guy for you when I'm angry or anything... I'm sorry...

Alright so the boat ride back seemed longer than it was when we went there (my theory works right?) Oh well I was also thinking that we were going back to reality and out of our fantasy "pre-honeymoon" and the feeling was not that great... it was heaven to be like with her for 4 days and all... with no care in the world.. what time to go back... what time to sleep... no restrictions... no distractions... the world revolved around us and of course jared, sarah and melvin... but to me it was just mainly Jamie and I and it felt great!!! Baby, I meant what I sang in I swear okay? We'll have more pre honeymoons in the future k??!! SEPT SEPT SEPT!!!

Yea that's basically how the trip went and all.. this is like a major long post but heck... read to your hearts content... My lover fell asleep without telling me... sigh... call me when you wake up k babe? Love ya!

To sarah , melvin and jared.... It was great spending those 4 days with ya! I hope that we can have more of these kinda things in the future... Thanks for everything Sarah... sorry you got into trouble and all... and to my brothers from another mother... we're gonna be buds for life man... we've come this far already... I don't see why we can't last another 30 years! (cuz I think I'm gonna die young... lol)

Love ya all man.... especially you girlfriend!

2007-03-05T23:20:00.000-08:00

Farewell Singapore... I wish this was for good.. I'd elope with my girl and everything would be perfect but nah we're not eloping. We're going on holiday and not looking back!

She says its our pre honeymoon lol sounds like its gonna be a ball of fun... CUZ its not just her who's coming, Jared, Melvin and Sarah are coming as well. Melvin's gonna feel down right sad without the love of his life there whereas I have mine and Jared has his.

Will blog about the trip when we come back. We'll be gone say 5 days? I get to spend 5 days with my baby! without her "I'll go home by when" kinda thing... heh heh... I've packed my bag already so all we need to do is to set sail and leave tml morning... goodbye people!

2007-03-03T20:21:00.000-08:00

just woke up from a very very long sleep.

I really deseve that amount of sleep. Like seriously..... now I just wished I had slept instead. Cuz you noe when you sleep, you don't think so much... yea i think sleep's like the best option.

I'm still waiting for you.... always will.

2007-02-28T07:22:00.000-08:00

I don't understand anything at all... I feel so frustrated but I don't know how the hell to explain it. I feel like punching the wall so hard that I break my hand... that's how frustrated I feel.

I need to visit the police station later they finally want to close my case.... and then I'll have to renew my passport... Gonna go on holiday next week. I don't know if she still wants to stay with me.... but I hope she does.

I'm sick and tired of goin through this everyday... I really appreciate you talking to me and everything and lettin me noe how you feel so don't stop doing that but we'll work our way through this relationship together. But about that issue seriously... I don't know what to say already... I was like on the edge of breaking down once again and leaving my fate to God... its so easy to not bother anymore but I'm trying.... I'm trying so hard.. cuz you mean the world to me. That issue is so stupid... I noe you feel scared but thats what it is... I don't wanna go back to square one again... it'll frustrate me extremely.. I've been getting shit for 4 days in a row and what's worse... I found out that something you said was something I didn't think you meant... it was so painful... and then suddenly you said that then I couldn't take it anymore... I'm sorry... but whatever the case is, I'm gonna stick by you no matter what... even if it means that I have to ram my damn head in the wall to take my mind off things... sigh...

I'm so so so sad and hurt... I also dunno why.

I'm sorry I made you feel the same way.

2007-02-26T22:07:00.000-08:00

The demon waits patiently. He knows his time will come once again and he does nothing but wait. It's just a matter of time before the world sees him once more in all his glory. He hears the cries of his host and does nothing to soothe it... for pain and sorrow are the essence of the demon's survival.

Pain and Sorrow surrounds him and he basks in its wonder.... he feels powerful once more after being sealed up for so long. With a menacing laugh which echoes throughout his hosts body, he rips the seal apart and reappears once again. The host finds himself sealed once again and he is terrified but there's nothing he can do... for a long long time.

2007-02-24T04:33:00.000-08:00

its super early in the morning and I just got off the phone not too long ago....

I FEEL FUCKED UP....

Going to the Chingay Parade with Jamie and her parents later on in the day... "Yipee"

"and then you have to spoil it all by saying something stupid"
- in this case not saying anything at all....

FUCK!
FUCK!
FUCK!

I'm gonna go to the fucking bed... and try and get some fucking sleep... probably will wake up fucking early anyways... for nothing... FUCK!!!!!

Trees really get a bad deal... cuz i seriously feel like going down to fucking punch one....

2007-02-22T08:53:00.000-08:00

This heart once pure was hardened by the realities of life
This heart once pure was enveloped in darkness
This heart once pure was scarred by a sharpened knife
This heart once pure knew no more of the word kindness

An eye for an eye this heart cried
Anxious, worried voices spoke with genuine concern
They spoke of morals and assumed they understood its plight
Ah but this heart, morals he could no longer discern

Everyone watched this heart grow with disdain
But this heart knew and mocked them with hatred
The world did not understand the pain
And yet they persisted, insisting it was fated

They came, they went
This heart saw it all and made it happen
The hurt they felt that this heart sent
It reveled in their helplessness, the kindness it had taken

Every beginning is said to have an end
And this heart realized the sins committed
This tainted heart needed to amend
So it did and the sins shall forever be omitted

This ray of light found its way to the heart
This ray of light softened the hardened wall around it
This ray of light opened the doors that were once shut
This ray of light gave the heart the kindness that was in need

This heart once tainted basked in the warmth of the light
This heart once tainted let itself be taken in completely
This heart once tainted now has new sight
This heart once tainted is bursting with love and ecstasy

Ah but alas this heart fears that the light will one day disappear
What would this heart do?
Life would be meaningless, year after year
So this heart gives all it can give even if its sad and blue

The light wants many things and this heart tries its best
Can it understand though?
The things the heart does without putting up a protest
Or is the light just going with the flow?

The light turns dull once in awhile as it needs to rest
The heart can’t possibly stop beating so it waits patiently
The light lights up but still thinks rest is best
The heart happy for awhile can only droop down sadly

Yes the heart wants many things but sadly it has to wait
It has to suit the light and its odd timing
But it will always adore the light no matter what’s been said
“I want to shine, but I can’t right now” the familiar phrase appearing

Sigh… I love you babe…. Sleep tight!

Oh and by the way people!!!! its JARED'S BIRTHDAY TODAY (he's 19 just in case you didn't noe) yea so GO WISH HIM! I'm eating dinner with the fella later...

Happy BIRTHDAY JARED CHAN!!!! You'll always be my brother from another mother!

2007-02-20T15:39:00.000-08:00

screw having any expectations... what do you get? nothing good i can tell you that.....

remember the book "GREAT EXPECTATIONS" by charles dickens?

FUCK YOU CHARLES!

whatever great expectations you have it'll never turn out right....

fucking year of the pig.... fucking pig....

2007-02-18T15:01:00.000-08:00

Happy Lunar New Year everyone! Its not really a very happy one for me... cuz i'm sick among other things i guess... My mom lost money and she thinks i took it... and my dad also thinks its me when I did not even touch their fucking money... She pisses me off with "I'm gonna report to the police so they can trace back where it went" I didn't fucking touch the damn money... cb

Well thank god for the weather.... my fever is gone... that's bout the only fucking good thing bout the day...

I had a nightmare last night... shall not elaborate. actually doesn't really matter now.... yea

yea.... once again Happy Lunar New Year to you all... Rip all your relatives of their money... that's the whole point of these few days right? To get as much fucking money as you can... to be friendly with people you don't even noe... acting all smiley and all when you noe that they're cussing inside bout another 10 bucks gone or smth. Suddenly people start appearing and you only happen to see them on these few days... I wonder why... isn't it all for the money? Forgive my mood... I've got nothing better to do....

fuck it

yea

yea.

2007-02-14T08:11:00.000-08:00

V day's finally come and gone... and I couldn't be a happier man right now. Thanks for the deeeelicious cookies lover!

Alright so let's begin by apologising for not blogging this month cuz I've been busy with the PRESENT and stuff and I've also been giving out flyers mind you... (OK FINE it was just 3 days but it's still work!) Singaporeans are so damn stuck up... I swear.... any of you reading this now should ALWAYS and i mean ALWAYS take flyers from the poor sods who are giving them out whenever you see them. You don't realise the pain and suffering they go through witnessing the screwed up people just walking by them and giving them the "oh shit not another one" or the "I can't be bothered with you.. scram" look. When I say pain and suffering, I mean the anguish of wanting to hit that fella so bad but knowing that you can't... and trust me, that sucks. At least I had help on the first day from Marcel and my girl... Thanks dude and thanks lover!!!! Oh did I mention that my girl bought a watch for me as a surprise? Cuz we were chilling at bugis street after my first shift and I spotted a watch I liked and I was planning on using my pay to get it the next day but my girl beat me to it and bought it for me while I was on the 2nd shift and hurried down to pass it to me at the end of the day... AWWWW....

alright so i'm digressing but no worries... have alot to say anyways.

Hmm I came home at like 2 plus today cuz I slept over at Jona's chalet... and I must say that he is one heluva boyfriend to have... he booked the chalet for Amanda and settled almost everything that needed to be settled himself and I couldn't offer anything in return except being there... I'm sorry Jona, one day, it'll be my turn.. but thanks really. It was fun but seriously, I didn't see why that fuck face needed to come... and you close people should noe who I'm talking about... acting like he owns the place and disturbing ppl in their slumber. I'm a tired guy who's been working on my girl's present for like god knows how long and I deserve some sleep at least but no... he thinks he's funny... methinks not... fat fuck...

Oh well upon reaching home, I kept my focus and worked on the present yet again... but sadly, I couldn't finish it in time for my girl... I'm sorry once again lover! I probably left the house at 5 plus and went to collect the flowers from gardens... SOMEONE was 30mins late... but she's sick so I shall close one eye... lol.. The way i gave her the flowers was really weird I turned my back on her and hid the flowers in front of me and when she was near I just turned around and thrust the boquet to her lovingly (sounds funny) oh well... yea glad you liked the roses babe... We went to sushi tei to eat!!!! Sukiyaki and softshell crab sushi... HEAVEN!!! hahaha... it was my first time eating there and it left a good impression so I'll definitely go back there one day... today was a day of many firsts! my first valentine's day with a girlfriend, my first time giving someone flowers... yea... ok so anyways after that we went to plaza to watch THE PROTEGE... it's quite a good movie really... thought the reviews said it was a 3 star show... I'd give it 3 half? I'm too lazy to write a review about it so yea just trust my ratings... I know that our valentine's day was a lil cliche and everything but what mattered was that I got to spend time with her and enjoy her company... that's what really matters.

Glad you enjoyed your day babe...

Alright I'm about to call that sweet girl of mine now... toodles!

2007-01-30T00:03:00.000-08:00

Alright, I haven't blogged in like ages hahaha as quoted from ram, my blog's collecting dust and all that rubbish. I've good reason as to why I haven't blogged though... my precious precious lap top was sent for repairs over the christmas season and I got it back like on the 21st Jan? Yea.. had no mood to go to school and nothing much to do (since when do i like to go to school in the first place? lol) If not for my girl and my buddies, I'd be a rotting corpse by now.

To start, I think my GPA for this sem is gonna suck big time. I mean I'm praying I can get a pass at least and then pull up over the next 2 years of my poly life. If I have to retake this sem then I'm thinking that its not too bad either cuz i'll definitely buck up but if I have to retake the whole friggin YEAR then that's gotta suck! Well hope everything in that area goes well then.

Next, filming will resume as soon as the holidays start. Now that I have my lappy back, I have found the mood to start filming again. Maybe, just maybe I'll see to it that 2 or 3 eps get done by the end of the hols yea?

I've been catching loads of movies over the few weeks of my absence and I seriously don't have the energy to write reviews on every single one of them now. Those of you who've seen me here n there would have probably heard my personal opinions already anyways so it doesn't really matter but I think the illutionist is pretty darn cool... since its like the latest newest movie I've caught and you people should catch it.

I just came back from a jog with melvin around the church park like 10 times. Sounds easy yea? BUT there's a huge catch. After every round we have to do 10 push ups and 10 sit ups now try that for a work out. It's amazing I did 10.... lol. Therefore, I'm sad to say that I'm gonna go off already. I need to catch some slp and wake up tml to go to melvin's house... not gonna go school once again haha. I'm kinda into this game called hero's online... its relatively old (like came out in 2005?) but the leveling up is somewhat fast and I've got loads of game cash already! hahaha madness.

Alright, time to sleep...

TO MY GIRL : Sometimes you can really infuriate me but at the end of it all, I think of how you are the best thing in my life and I just let it go. So don't worry, I'm fine... I really hope the essence of chicken helps! Best of luck lover! Thanks for all the time we spent over the past few weeks... I've enjoyed every moment... no quarrels nothing! heh... WOINEE!

2006-12-17T19:10:00.000-08:00

Damn the weather! It's not helping my illness at all I say.... Well at least the flu went down a lil now's just the cough. I hate having a cough cuz you can't sleep properly... every few mins you'll wake up cuz you're coughing. Hopefully, I'll be better by christmas cuz it'll suck feeling the way i'm feeling now during christmas.

Alright, today's the first day of lonliness.... my girl's enjoying herself in korea and I'm stuck in mainland Singapore doing what I do best and feeling sick. Heh... You know what she did? She pre wrote like 7 notes for each day that she's gone for me to read on the respective day. She said it was so that I wouldn't forget her... I mean the contents of those letters are private of course but just know that I felt very fuzzy wuzzy reading the 1st and 2nd day ones. Can't wait for you to come back babe!

And now... everyone should noe what kinda last minute person I am yea? So it wouldn't be a surprise to know that I'm doing my christmas shopping on the 24th itself right? heh... Nah cuz I'm waiting for my pocket money as well so that I'll have enough saved up to get presents and stuff... Think I might even have to take a loan from my mom... Well its the season of giving right? So i'm sure she'll understand. heh

We've agreed to watch eragon tml as in the guys and I... strictly no girls allowed. I also said I watch it with my girl heh nvm I guess I'll just have to watch the movie twice... It looks good though so shouldn't be a problem.

Alright I'm headin down to gardens now probably get a beer or something. Cheers!

2006-12-16T22:22:00.000-08:00

Guess who was SANTA CLAUSE today? ME!!!!! hahaha.... other than the fact that I was sick (when I coughed I really looked like an old man with the beard) it was pretty much fun. I didn't realize it but Santa apparently has alot of sex appeal cuz all the women wanted to take pictures with me! *grinz* The kids were adorabale as well punching my tummy and tearing my bag open for sweets. Furthermore, the pay was like 80 bucks for 40 mins of work!!! How cool is that la! It's like they're paying me 2 bucks every minute to just give sweets to customers and make everyone happy.. I can do that no problem! The santa suit is one hell of a hot shit though....

Anyways shan't rant on about it cuz I'm quite the SICK.... just to let you people know, we've started filming already.. (finally james finally) and everything's going well... but 1st Jan seems abit too far fetched now... oh well we'll see won't we?

2006-12-12T23:30:00.000-08:00

Hey people! I just watched "DeJa Vu" with my girl. I rate it 3/5 stars cuz there isn't much action and stuff but the plot... ahhh... that's another thing altogether. The term DeJa Vu means having the illusion of having previously experienced something actually being encountered for the first time and that's what they were trying to do basically the plot would be that this federal agent wants to do more than just catch criminals he wants to catch them before they even do something. There's some form of fantasy plot behind it all with the time machine and everything but it was rather interesting to see the chaos effect taking place. The chaos effect would be in layman's terms, karma. The cause and effect of your actions. It was really cool but like I said, I wouldn't rate it that high because it lacks something which I can't put my finger on. Thanks for the movie babe!

Oh and before that, we went to eat the pepper lunch at the food court at J8... it's really an ingenious concept that whoever started it came up with. It's like they put raw beef on this MAJOR HOT plate... and you have a choice of 3 sauces... Honey brown sauce, Garlic Soya Sauce and Chilli Sauce. First, you mix everything up together so that the meat gets cooked... then you put in the sauce and mix it again so that everything blends nicely together. It was amazing hahaha thanks for introducing it to me babe! I'm definitely gonna go back there again... PRAISE THE JAPS for their food!!!! oh and being a hot plate means you are liable to burn yourself if you touch it but what do you know? they thought of that too and surround the plate with this paper thing which prevents your hand from touching the hot plate!!! cool huh?

Oh and for our 2nd month, my girl got me a lighter! but not just any other lighter, its got our initials engraved on it saying "J n J 06" but she said she's not encouraging me to smoke... hmmmm... lol

Christmas is coming soon and the hols have been rather uneventful for me. I've been watching anime lately... Inukami, GTO, DN angel and some other anime of which the name i've clearly forgotten. It's been really cool.. I've been living in my own world these few days and sleeping late cuz I love anime. Don't really go out alot and all unless I have to. I don't want to spend money either because I've my friends to think about for christmas and everything. Oh well I've saved quite abit already but still in need of more... Somehow, I'll get it.. somehow.

We start filming as of tomorrow... its gonna be a blast... the long awaited moment... Jan the 1st. To all those who know me, remember to spread it to your friends!!! n of course I'll need constructive feedback!

heh... ciao!

2006-12-05T19:04:00.000-08:00

I busted my fucking knuckles punching the fucking tree... It just looked great to punch and I went ahead and did it. Fucking tree...

GREAT DAY today.... went to watch "A battle of Wits" with my girl. The cinema was FUCKED UP... freezing like crazy... among other things.

I'm not in the mood to blog today but I need to or I'll just shout at some stranger whom I don't know later or something.

There's NO FUCKING PROBLEM WITH ME... period....

Leave me alone...

2006-11-29T12:06:00.000-08:00

Hey everyone! I'm at Garden's Macs with Benedict right now.... I missed my Basic Theory TEST!!!! ARGH... cuz I friggin didn't wake up.. Nobody had the grace to wake me up even though they noe that I'm a sucker when it comes to sleeping in bed. Oh well my retest date is on the 10th Jan... At this rate I don't know when I can get my friggin license. Slow and steady wins the race I guess.

Benedict would like to say a few words :

Ben : What the hell would I want to say?

James : Anything... like you've got a long dick and stuff?

Ben : Eh EH EH! Fuck you!

James: *laughs*

Ben: I want your mother breaaaassssst milk

James: If she has any left.....

Ben: What do they say about people who have constipation?

James: What?

Ben: They DON'T GIVE A SHIT

James: ..... LOL

alright that was plain retarded... I just asked him to come up with random nonsense.

I noticed something bout girls. They love putting us guys in a bad light whenever something goes wrong. It's like if they have a tiff or what not, they'll go to their friends and say "you noe he did this you noe he did that?" This is rather unfair to the male gender I would presume.. because sometimes it is a mutual thing and it is no one's fault but the couple themselves. That's why some guys are labelled bad boyfriends and some labelled as good. The good ones play it smart and appease their girl in any way they can but on the other hand, he might be a bad person? Guys aren't the SIMPLETONS that girls might think we are. I am speaking up for the male gender here.. To me, there is no such thing as the weaker sex anymore. Girls can be equally abusive, dominating, snide and intelligent as guys can be. It's been as such for a long time now having equality among the sexes. Guys have a hard time usually cuz they have alot to live up to and we don't deserve being maligned when something bad happens. Cuz if we do then in the end all our good isn't appreciated anymore... its just the bad shit that people look at... do we deserve that? GUYS! speak up man... I'm not being sexist here... its just a statement which crossed my mind when I was sleeping last night... so don't get offended babe and fellow women.

And babe, about yesterday, we'll work something out alright? It just doesn't feel right and all ya noe what I mean? Let's just work it out.

Oh and below, is the video I did with Mel and Bay Tay and Bay Bay lol.... a lil gayish cuz its from Westlife but comments would be nice... thanks everybody!

2006-11-27T21:46:00.000-08:00

Alright new skin up..... nothing much. When Lewis does up the PhotoShop for me then I'll work more on the design but don't expect anything fancy cuz i'll jus add a couple more pictures and make it look good. I'm still thinking whether I should stick with the white or go with all black. I wonder. Oh well... whatever the case is, I just decided to change it cuz I was bored and well the other one was getting a little boring. I need something that I can keep using for a long time.

Today I left class at the 3rd meeting cuz the fucking bitch of a science facilitator pissed the shit outta me. I swear I'd have shouted at her if not for my common sense. It was so bloody obvious that she was picking on me and she dared say she didn't. ah fuck her!

Nothing much to say today.. cept that my fever went down and I'm embarking on my save alot of money journey. I practically starved my poor body today... came home and wallaoped the food that my mom cooked and forced my babe to eat more hahaha... the look of agony on her face gosh....classic. But don't worry babe... you're sitting beside me now and I LOVE YOU!

2006-11-26T22:27:00.000-08:00

we kinda took lotsa mrt rides so yea most of it was from the mrt itself.

I'm sick like a dog right now. Had amazing race yesterday... It was a school event and it lasted from like 9am to 7pm. Unfortunately, we didn't win anything this time round either but we had shit loads of fun. Once again we were called "Toilet Gangsters" and this time the team members comprised of - Jimmy, Ivor, Shane, Turtle, Kai Yu and myself. Our route seemed pretty easy going at the start but at the end..... sighs...

OK so here's where we started from
1. Esplanade (Roof Garden)
2. Takashimaya (infront of the fountain)
3. Marina South (the big field infront of the steamboat)
4. Park Mall (opp PS)
5. ChinaTown (the bridge at China Point)
6. Yishun (the mrt station)
7. Bedok (Market place)

From here on we had to head back because there wasn't anymore time for us to complete the rest we were left with toa payoh and kembaggan. Oh well, the Bedok one was a killer because we had to search for recycle bins and take pictures of it as well as write down where it's located. Shane and I were running around the whole of bedok findin the stupid bins and WE got caught in the rain too... came back drenched like dog. Lol... I guess that's why i'm sick.

Christmas is coming soon! I've planned all my presents that I wanna get and everything already. Need to save quite abit so from tml onwards, I'm not gonna eat in school or spend my money at all. I'm just gonna pass it to my mom and ask her to help me keep. If I manage to get a shoot or something then I can use it and have fun with my girl and friends. Other than that, I'm not gonna touch the money. It's for the greater good!

It's gonna be a year since I last fell down. I wonder what I'm gonna do on the 12th december. Drink??? hahhaa... Happy anniversary! People usually celebrate stuff like marriage or getting together. I'm celebrating the mark of the day when I should have died but didn't. Weird really... nothing much has changed I guess has it? Except for the fact that i'm recovering rather well and other small small issues. Any ideas on what to do on the day of my fall?

2006-11-20T19:17:00.000-08:00

Hilo!

Mike has a new purse... friggin funny. It's like an Ah Ma's purse... Light Blue and Orange. He's using this new purse cuz he lost his wallet. Take a look at the purse above! Damn funny, once I saw it, I burst out laughing like crazy.

Oh I would just like to wish all O level KIDS "CONGRATULATIONS" cuz all of them finished their Os today!!! Mike can finally chill out with us more often. He went to dye his hair today lol now its like purple! Seriously, I think the dying hair thing is really old school. Been there and done that so let's not deprive him of formality.

I gave school a miss today and I just realised that I'm getting fatter after cutting my damn hair. I need to lose somemore weight. So this is like the 5th time in a year I'm going on a exercise spree. LOL I lose weight easily but the thing is I gain weight easily too. Dammit.

My Lao Po is feeling sick at the moment I just hope that she recovers soon especially since I can't be there for her at the moment. She has projects and everything... A real busy girl this one. Take care of yourself alright babe?

Okay people I'm off for my jog now. Gonna cheong for 2 weeks by the end of 2 weeks I'll definitely lose weight. Cheers People!

2006-11-18T20:39:00.000-08:00

this post is dedicated to "TOILET GANGSTERS" I had fun today and I hope all of you all did too. Don't worry, there's always next week's amazing race! Thanks Jimmy, Shane, Ivor, Lewis for making my day!

Ok basically to those who are clueless as in to what happened today, we (the above names mentioned) had a paintball competition organized by our school and we were very eager to win. Fate just wasn't on our side though. Our first round was against this group of NCC dudes and they called themselves "Lepak Corner" I mean what kinda name is Lepak corner anyways? So we came up with this 4 man sprint thing and 1 man defend. Somehow, amidst the confusion, we were all given Yellow cards for shooting too close to the enemy. Which was retarded and the judges were just plain blind. So we had to restart the round and in the end, everyone was out of bullets cept yours truly. If I had known, I'd have been a lil more scared but I didn't know. So this guy shot me and I backed up which apparently was a mistake cuz the next thing I knew, he was running past me to the balloon. I did what anybody would have done, I chased him and totally forgot about the 3m rule and shot him point blank at his neck. I still had the cheek to tell him "I shot you..." The dude scared me abit though cuz I thought he was gonna shoot me but in the end he just grabbed his neck obviously in major pain. AND I GOT A RED CARD FOR THAT.
I'm the MVP of the whole day.... MOST VIOLENT PLAYER!

The 2nd game was screwed up too... I fell down, got shot in the eye, shot Ivor in the leg (ON PURPOSE) and we got kicked out of the round robin. Geez... but we had fun... definitely.

Thereafter, I went over to banga's tattoo parlour and looked at the progress of my makeover tattoo... aint' too bad... I'm gonna go religious and put mother mary there to safeguard me. If all goes well and the tattoo is nice, I wanna put an Angel's wing on my left side of my back. Wad cha all think?

Anyways i'm tired and I'm gonna slp good night people!

ps : I felt like a God again when I shot him in the neck. Gosh the power is killing me! lol

2006-11-13T20:47:00.000-08:00

Aight today was rather fun. I didn’t go to school AGAIN…. I was sleeping so soundly till some “Inspector Tan” called and disrupted my peaceful sleep. He said that the rest of the class were gonna pon anyways and asked if I wanted to watch a movie. So I asked him where and the fella had the cheek to tell me to go to woodlands cuz some of them had to go back to school after that.

So there I was on the way to woodlands once again even though I skipped school to go and meet them and it was raining heavily mind you. We went to catch the covenant and I already watched it but hell it was an alright movie to me. However, the 2nd time seemed a little more boring than the first (duh right?) I had fun with them though.

Then after the movie, I REALIZED that I forgot to pay my damned fine so I kinda panicked. So I sought the help I needed from dad and my old man saved the day once again and met me at ang mo kio to pass me money for my fine. Inspector Tan and Cheng Kiat followed me to gardens and we slacked there for abit before heading home. They said that gardens is a real good slack place and if possible they would like to slack there more in the near future.

We were also discussing on making flash bangs and taking vids and all that. It’d be real cool but dangerous so we have exercise caution and if we do it anytime soon you’ll see the video in you tube in no time. Just hope that nobody gets hurt in the process cuz its gonna be one hell of a blast.

And I’m glad you’ve forgiven me lao po!
I’m still very sorry though.

2006-11-12T00:45:00.000-08:00

I'm an idiot and I know that jolly well by now.

I'm sorry it went this way

You Don't know how sorry I feel

I shall not give myself any excuses for today

But I must tell you that it wasn't intentional

If you intend to walk away,

I deserve to know right now.

If you think i'm not the right guy for you,

I deserve to know

I'm not walking away because I promised you I wouldn't

So its your call now

I'm sorry.

You take care of yourself too

So much for no attitude for the day huh?

I never meant any of this to happen.

I love you.

Thanks for the present

Happy times eh?

2006-11-10T18:53:00.000-08:00

I went to watch flushed away today! All I can say that it's a cute show with humour that everyone can appreciate and enjoy. Furthermore, the animation's pretty well done and I'd give it 3/5 stars.

Then I went to grab a rod from melvin's place cuz I didn't have any and my classmates wanted to go fishing. Went to gardens and ate dinner at the new western place... I swear this is one place that won't ever lose its business. It's really a great place to eat at... I mean it's a little pricey and all for a coffeeshop stall but it's good. Thanks for dinner Gerard!

Alright then we went over to Violet to wish uncle Martin Happy Birthday... We drank there too and boy was I a lil stoned when I left the place. I managed to find my way to Bedok Interchange to meet Ivor and Shane though.. hahaha loads of people were looking at me when i stumbled into the bus cuz like I was carrying a fishing rod and looking rather red in the face.

So in the end, the CLASS outing became Shane, Ivor and me. We took like an hour to get there because it was so fucking far away la. We took like 2 pit stops. One to drink a can of beer and disturb cats and the other was to buy a coconut which was as big as my head. What's the worse part was that we only caught a few small fish. hahaha but it was fun spending time with them and having all the jokes and all to pass my time and take my mind off things. Thanks DUDES!!!!

I had a great time today.... Happy first month.....

2006-11-09T19:19:00.000-08:00

Alright I typed quite abit but its all gone lol anyways no worries I'll go at it once again since I'm so super free today. Didn't attend class cuz I was just feeling to damn tired to move my body from my, oh so comfortable bed. Anyways THIS IS THE VIDEO THAT WE DID LAST WEEK but improvements have been made at the end so that now we’re all in sync which is so much better than the previous one.

Anyways HAPPY FIRST MONTH TO YOU TOO SWEETIE! Though we’re not spending this day together and everything, its okay there’s tomorrow and I hope that you have fun later at your sister’s party.

Oh and we watched step up yesterday, I swear it’s a worthwhile show to watch man. It’s like the dancing is good and cool and there’s a nice combination of ballet and hip hop and stuff. Prior to that, the girl is so SO SO PRETTY!!!! My god! She looks a lil chubby but PRETTY nonetheless. Oh and the story line is good (though my gal says that its not good… kudos to that man!) I’d give it 4/5 Stars. So do go take a look people!

2006-11-08T10:37:00.000-08:00

this is the video we did in class today! so damn fun! Rock on!

We've got another video just go to you tube and search for w25e, you'll find it. I swear today was the best lesson ever! Glad i woke up super early and all. I realised that when i'm editing the video or in the process of the shoot, i can forget about everything. Smoking, hunger, my phone and all that. Sorry Babe! didn't mean to neglect you and all... i'm glad you had fun today even though you weren't with me but came to meet me. See you tml aight? We're gonna watch "step up" Wait up for my reviews people!

Oh and I would like to give a thank you to my team members who worked real hard today

Ivor - the laughing inspector

Lewis - Psychotic Boyfriend

Shane - Psychotic Boyfriend's best friend 1

James - Best friend 2

Turtle - Best friend 2's galfren

Lynn - the dead gal amy

Everyone did a great job today on set and behind the scenes. Let's go for a hot dog tml!!!! I'm sure the mustard man would love that! lol

2006-11-06T18:24:00.000-08:00

Hello everyone! Time to sweep the dust that's been collecting over the past few days (or isit weeks) that I haven't blogged. It was either I couldn't find the time or was just too laid back to bother.

For starters, I would like to wish the confirmants CONGRATULATIONS!!!! All of you are finally matured spiritually and I hope to see you all next year helping out be it in the youth groups or the youth helpers. Personally, I know you all would like to be helpers cuz all the cool people are there but not all of you will be with us or the group will be too large to handle. I'll try to see what I can do yea? No promises... (as someone I know loves to say... you know who you are!) The dinner after confirmation mass was splendid.... hahaha I thoroughly enjoyed each and every single course. What can i say? It was free anyways. Thereafter, I want to watch the covenant with babe and mike. I say 4 friggin stars man!!! It's like way cool... i mean hot, hunky guys are not really in my best interest but i'm talking bout the action and everything. Cool stuff!

I've been working on this project for quite awhile. It's this 4000 word (approx) essay and I've got to get it done by the end of the week. Lord, help me. I've got to think of how I'm gonna do my "movie" thing too. I'll most probably be casting people who know me so if you get a call say mid december, means I need you to help me with my shoot. Basically, I intend to create a short film say 30mins long to just get the hang of this video editing and making business since its related to my course. I've quite an interest in it and if this is a success, it'll go into my portfolio and increase my credibility when I work. I won't say what the shoot's about yet but everyone will know sooner or later.

Ben and I were discussing last night about how cool this new interest could be because all of us will major in different sectors and if we combined together, we could actually start a business in the near future! We look like we always have no purpose in life and we're always bumming around but if we can pull this off, who knows? We might make it big in the entertainment industry next time. It's not like they lack people in that sector but they lack talented and creative people. That's where I guess we come in? lol

My skills are going to be tested on wednesday cuz we're doing a short film for Culture Module. Anyone who wants to take a look at the video can ask it from me on thurs. I have 2 other videos if anyone's interested. lol....

Alright I guess i'll be heading to gardens for dinner. Thereafter, I'll head back and finish up my essay if i can. I still have my RJ to do! I'm too lazy to post pictures of confirmation.... hahaha just look at my display pic every once in awhile.

2006-10-24T09:27:00.000-07:00

Basically, I have like time restrictions cuz my mother is being a turd at the moment she thinks that if I don't go to school for just one BLOODY DAY i'd get sent to National Service. Sorry mom but that's fucking stupid and I don't wanna talk to you at the moment... Been having a rough day.

All's fine in the afternoon went for my mom's brother's 70th birthday. Surprisingly, he's still strong and alive! Don't get to see that often anymore now do we? His children (my cousins) and his wife planned this major banquet lunch thing which included SUCKLING PIG and SHARK'S FIN... hahaha and my dad and I were just gulping down the free booze.

Came back and like Mike, Jamie and I went to watch the prestiege.... don't ask me how good was it cuz I seriously don't know. Couldn't concentrate on the show at all la. Gerard says its good... mind boggling.

I know I seem to be the one causing all the problems and it sucks to know that seriously but I just want to see you happy and I hope you can trust me enough to know that I'll always be true to you. I won't ever leave you like that again ok? I'm real sorry for being such a FUCKED up lao gong. I'm glad we're okay now. All I wanted to say I've said so I don't see the need to repeat it. I love you.

Hurt but recovering.

Take care people.

2006-10-18T21:29:00.000-07:00

FUCK IT!

I'll just keep chasing the damn lizard till its tail drops off

2006-10-17T05:49:00.000-07:00

2 words for my girl

I'm Sorry

3 words ?

I love you

4 words ?

We will pull through

5 words?

You brighten up my life

Let's try for a 6

you're the love of my life

7!!!!!

I will never let you go.... NEVER!!!!

2006-10-13T01:05:00.000-07:00

I will always remember the day when we rolled in the sand
Sitting on the swings together laughing at nothing in particular
I fell and hit my head..... DAMN
The look that you gave, Love could go no further

Maybe something might put you in one of those moods
Or you might be at a loss and don't know what to do
No matter where I am, I would want to be there if i could
Even if i'm keeping silent, I'll always be there for you!

So why am I being cheesy and lame?
When everyone thinks me cool and laid back?
I guess when you found that one thing in life you forget about the fame
Especially if she melts your heart with love which you once lacked!

*raises an eyebrow* gee whiz... look mama, your son's a "poet" lol... nitez ppl...

2006-10-11T23:31:00.000-07:00

10/10/2006 - A date to remember.... A date that means something special and a date which I will never forget. Let's just say my single streak's over yea? Says something about the girl doesn't it? Heh... I'm a happy dude.

I've ponned another day of school today and boy oh boy it feels great! I'm like slacking at home with nothing to do. I feel absolutely free!!!! I can't get too used to this feeling though... or my grades will be affected and I really do not need that right now. Can the holidays hurry up and come already??? grrr...

Thank goodness my lap top is okay already... I was damn damn depressed in the day cuz it had a virus and I had to send it to the IT helpdesk (who arent really famous for their powers of healing) when it came back, there was nothing inside it. Melvin came over and helped me d/l the rest of the programmes that were missing. "THANKS MELVIN" Just cuz of that I didn't watch movie with Lao Po... I'm sorry Lao Po! Thanks for keeping me company! The next time we take a bus, we're gonna take the front seats!

2006-10-04T23:55:00.000-07:00

It's been a long and tiring day but I enjoyed it once again. I PON TANG school today!!!! broke my 100% attendance for the new sem thingy... oh well... I deserve it because I met Jamie a little over the agreed time that we were supposed to meet so I had to follow her to Jurong East and then come back to Woodlands... yes yes I'm such a caring creature huh? So I found myself eating Macs with Mohsen, Ram and Raymond at woodlands around 9.15am? They agreed to PON TANG with me so we hitch-hiked to raymond's house and played dota there for awhile... Ram was getting steamed up with the steamy magazine in Raymond's hidden treasure box lol... Then I went back to woodlands to meet Jamie... This time, I wasn't late ok!

We went to PS cuz we were gonna watch "Stay Alive" with Sarah and Melvin orginally BUT the fella decides to pang seh us and stay home so freeman comes along instead and after a hearty meal at KFC, we walk around looking at stuff to buy. I found like a pair of jeans and a pair of shoes that cost $51 bucks altogether! cheap shit! They look good too... oh wells... and then I think I'm gonna wear a blazer this christmas, so that has to be taken into much consideration too. Jamie and Sarah bought their stuff *ahems* and looked around for more stuff but today kinda budget day so just ended up walking around and all.

So on to the movie, it was quite cool... I mean playing a game and dying in the game becomes reality? I mean wow! The scriptwriters went totally original on this one. Though yea its abit stupid and there's not much game action and all that, it's an alright movie. 3 outta 5 stars! Could have been a lil more gruesome too...I really do not understand why they rated it PG...

So Jamie had to go get her bag from toa payoh thereafter and then we headed to Chomps for dinner and even though my face is so chubby now I ate like carrot cake and then walked lao po home. She gave me like the sweetest thing today! (Look LOOK!!! down down!) behind the boy and girl are our names... I get to keep the girl one with her name and she kept the Guy one with mine... Thanks Lao Po!!! It's like the sweetest thing ever!

sweet right?

and again.... awww....

2006-10-02T11:24:00.000-07:00

One. Think of 15 short bits of interesting stuff about yourself. And theyave gotta be true.Two. Come up with 5 false statements regarding yourself, but for fun's sake keep them in the threshold of believability.Three. Jumble them all up together and list them in any order.Four. Post them on LJ (blogger) and let people guess which the five false ones are!Five. Get 5 others to do the same.

1. I have a tattoo on my right arm
2. I pierced my nose before
3. I've punched a guy in the face before
4. I like dogs
5. I cry during sad movies
6. My 2nd name is Karl
7. Kissed a guy's mouth before
8. Plays loads of computer games
9. Like hangin out in town after school
10. Sleeps well late at night or early in the morning
11. I usually jog in the day
12. I sleep with 3 pillows
13. I have 2 teddy bears on my bed
14. In love with the greatest, most beautiful girl ever
15. I read novels!
16. Has a rather forgetful memory
17. I play the guitar
18. Stubborn as a mule
19. I'm not CHUBBY
20. I like cartoons

ALRIGHT!!! I choose Melvin, Kath, Mitchell hahaha i have so lil frenz... sobs sobs. Yea la whoever wanna do jus do lo.. I gotta scram.

I can't believe I didn't call lao po today! It was like I was late for school and everything but I remembered when I woke up. Took the train to woodlands and just sat down on the floor near the bicycles and stoned... in the end, it totally slipped my mind to call her!!! She said it was okay but I feel like an idiot. Lucky she woke up... what if she didn't wake up and didn't go to school? I'd be the cause of it.. It won't happen again.. I promise lao po!!!

I'm sick!!! I fell sick just before the movie with Jamie yesterday... We went to watch Miami Vice. It was GREAT!!! loved every moment of it! She BLUFFED me and made me think that I misplaced the ticket.. walao... then I was like "SHIT" lol... Then she so cheeky la take the tickets out from her bag and say "IS IT THIS ONE?" hahha so cheeky! I pang sehed melvin and gang. (okay I still feel abit guilty.. bastards! didn't have to rub it in lo) It's not like I'll forget you guys cuz i'm with her! We'll all eat together next week or smth yea? Shouldn't be a problem... Anyways the show was rather boring. I'd give it a 2/5 stars. It was supposedly the action movie of the year or something "LIARS!" hahaha.... I definitely would wanna watch World Trade Center though.... it looks like a movie that will make me shed tears. Must prepare the tissue.. lol.

I'm such a happy guy now. Could not be happier!!!!! =)

2006-09-25T23:46:00.000-07:00

If every drop of water disappeared from the land
And every drop of ocean suddenly turned to sand
That would all be nothing
Compared to what I'd feel
If you didn't love me

What if I woke up and couldn't hear a sound
And all that I could see was darkness all around
That would all be nothing
Compared to what I'd feel
If you didn't love me

If I could have the world and all that money could buy
And I could travel far beyond the moon and the day
If they gave me golden wings,
well I still couldn't fly
without you, nothing would matter

You and I walk beside each other day after day
But there's so much inside me, I never get to say
My life would be so empty
with nothing left to feel
If you didn't love me
If you didn't love me

2006-09-24T00:58:00.000-07:00

I went to watch "John Tucker must die" with Jamie today. It's a good show to watch.... like seriously!!! Makes people think and stuff.... the appropriate show for me at this time now. 5 STARS man! It's deserved it. Then walked from Plaza Singapura to Orchard.... NEVER IN MY LIFE have I done that... hahaha but oh well there's a first time for everything and we just basically talked.... while she drank her watermelon juice... Then we went over to Ben's place for that special "SURPRISE" for the sec 3s... lol. Definitely had a ball of a time today.... AND I wasn't LATE.... heh... for once. Shocking huh?

I better go down for cat class tml... lol MIA last week already. Hmm... it's either I set like tons of alarms or I won't be able to go tml hahaha.. cuz i'm gonna eat supper with Chee Wee later... Discuss some guy stuff..

I'm so glad that I did what I had to cuz I don't want to be living hiding stuff from everyone that matters... I shall not spoil the show for you but yea that damn John Tucker is good but that's not the life anybody would wanna live... it's for cowards and bastards. Don't be like that yea?

2006-09-22T22:01:00.000-07:00

I can't take it anymore.... I jus need an outlet to vent my frustrations! Do I hear a WHY? even if I don't hear any i'm gonna tell you WHY! Cuz school has officially started and it's just the 2nd day mind you! I'm shagged like a dog! Oh yea i forgot to mention that I have a totally new class and compared to W24P, they're dead boring. Like I said to one of my groupmates today, if everyone feels that their old class was better than this class will not be anything but dull. I admit I'm guilty of that but what am I supposed to do? There's no one there whom I can talk to like Mitchell and Raymond. MOST IMPORTANTLY, there's no class joke! RAM the turn coat traitor that he is, is spending time with his new classmates and forgot bout us already. The old guys have agreed to eat lunch and go home together everyday from today onwards with the exception of RAM cuz we didn't noe where the hell he went. Our Enterprise Faci's such a friggin monster! She alloted jus 7 mins for us to present and just cut us off when we were a lil over time.. and it was our last slide too. I gave her a piece of my mind in my RJ but I had to put it as feedback cuz she happens to be the module chair and I ain't messing around with someone like that cuz I want that grade!

RP really makes a person super tired at the end of the day... and it isn't bout the no of hours that we're in school. It's the amount of thinking and presenting and summarization of words in slides that takes a toll on us poor students. Gerard, Melvin and Co noe me pretty well by now. They don't call me during weekdays cuz i always go home on weekdays. That's why I leave friday for you guys N saturdays for Nelson n Co. Sundays...church and then back to that same old routine once again. My life becomes rather mundane after awhile that's why I so look forward to friday and Just my LUCK... friday has to be SCIENCE module of all modules. Why do I bother so much about school? Well cuz this is my 2nd chance to set something right in my life and I'm so gonna take it.. I've done enough mental harm to my poor mom.

There's this other thing though... this one seems really really special. BUT... maybe I'm not good enough? I'm a nobody actually.... just some other guy. My gut feeling was never that great but I have this feeling in my heart that she's the one! She's the one I can give my heart to again and she won't break it... I'm sure of it. What can go wrong?? I'll make sure nothing will go wrong.. No matter how many sacrifices I have to make, i'll do it. The only thing stopping me is fear... fear that i'm some other guy... a friend... I was never good a telling signs like these.... (and yea i still ain't good) Guess i'll take it real slow... cuz I want this to be something beautiful... if it ever happens and patience is a virtue after all... it'll pay off... I hope.

2006-09-20T00:11:00.000-07:00

Can you hear the distinct rumble of thunder? The ominous cloud of depression above my drooping head is sinking lower and lower. I just found out my class and man it doesn't sound too good. W25E... what kinda people are gonna be there man? I doubt I shall ever have anyone whom I can dandy words with like Mitchell or Yvonne... Can't play soccer along the corridors.. Can't make fun of RAM... man that sucks. Oh well to hell with it.... I'm just gonna concentrate fully on the work at hand and do whatever it takes to get me up there.

And yes thank you thoughtful rooster for asking me out today.... I had fun. Even though it was like spending most of the time crapping and talking alot... lol.. it was fun nonetheless. Good Luck with work tml!

Ah yes whilst walking the rooster back we discussed some things and I'd have to say that I'm not letting what happened in the past affect my decisions from now on... I will never realise how good a girl is nor will I realise how much feeling we have if I don't try anything. So KUDOS to you my ex memory! It's time to get out of that stupid shell and dare to venture out into the open sea once more. Cuz I will not ever noe what's out there if i don't venture out right? Trust can be built and I as sure as hell wanna build it up again... so like the old man said himself "find someone you feel comfortable with or whatever (what he said was a lil corny so yea), settle down and see what happens from there" I've seen enough of the world and the old man's always right. Love you DAD!

2006-09-14T10:23:00.000-07:00

HEY! HEY! I'm in relatively high spirits now. Aight Aight let's put everything in order cuz a few things have happened lately so yea.

Firstly, I've started talkin to those 3 idiots and we're sorta like talkin as if nth happened. I'm only gonna say this once, buck up on the organizational skills cuz we all suck at that and next time, someone else think of smth to do for a change. Yeah understooded?

Hmm, Oh and i've been attending weekday mass like once every week hahaha if i keep this up it's gonna be alright cuz at least i'm satisfying the bare requirements of being a catholic. One weekday mass and one weekend.

Ah yes this may sound hilarious but apparently, the dudes are hooked on high school musical (and yes that includes me) BUT the fanatic would be Shaun cuz I heard him listening to it in the toilet while he was bathing tryin to muffle his singin but I heard it. geez... what the hell's wrong with the world. Oh but we do have a surprise coming up for the sec 3s lol... maybe they'll see it sometime near confirmation.

Speaking of Shaun, I swear his damn weighin scale is bonkers. It's like last week I weighed myself and was appalled at the big number 78.0 so i resolved to exercise everyday from then on and I've been sticking rather close to my regime and if I can't jog in the afternoon or morning, you'll see me running around at midnight. Yea so jus like 2 days ago I went over to his place again and I was rather elated at seeing the number down to 75.0 but when i ate like jus a lil bit of noodles (which i stole from melvin's bowl) it went up to 75.5!!!!! That's like so fucking fast man! I rather stick to melvin's weighin scale... cuz it happens to show me that i'm so much lighter and it doesn't increase that rapidly. Oh well this exercise thingy's working well for me. Hopefully i'll be like 65kg by next month

Ah yes, school's starting soon and it's back to that same old daily routine once again. I have a 3.1 grade point average and that ain't too bad don't you think? However, just based in my class alone, 3.1's like below average cuz the average grade is 3.2.... even the damn HMMM gal did better than me. GRRRR..... okay nvm nvm. I guess i deserve it cuz i skipped school here n there once in awhile at the end. I didn't give my best but I managed to pass with a good grade. I'm amazed that it's so easy to score in RP. I mean yea you gotta have common sense and a hardworkin attitude to score but apparently if you jus have a lil of both, you can score pretty well already. I swear those people who were not cut out for books should just go RP. But it is a lil unfair to all those other poly under grads who are still studying and trying so hard to get that good grade. Being from NYP before, I think that the system in RP is amazing and the other polys are like so old school la... lol

Anyways I don't know whether Shaun still wants to go Malaysia tml but if he doesn't then I can wake up so much later and stuff lol... but i do wanna go malaysia though. Oh wells... he says the crime rate there's like high. So I told Baybay that I'd grab my bag very tightly like some baby. I don't think shaun would be amused. GARH.... aight see you all soon! OH and those OF AGE!!!! I'll call you whenever there's like a party organised by "whosgoing" yea?" rest assured, IT'S FREE!!!!!! talk to me bout it if you're interested... but even if you don't, i'll find you! lol nitez!

2006-09-06T02:25:00.000-07:00

I had a 15 hour long nap today! I came back yesterday from 3 long days of sweat and toil. Oh well it's not as bad as it seems... Facilitating Confirmation Camp. It will be one of my unforgettable experiences I'd have to say.

Let's take it slow and go by each day.

Day 1
Gerard, Mike and I stayed over at melvin's house so obviously all of us came in late cuz we were like watchin dvds all night and managed to have like 30mins of sleep or so. I tried to catch some sleep in the bus but it just didn't come. I dumped my stuff on the floor and then went to take search the place for drinks and food but it was too early to find any. Yea so Father Gerard was doing the first session and I had nothing to lean on so I found myself dozing off every once in awhile. I caught phrases like devil wears prada and summon! hahaha... oh well I made a mental note that during the next session I wasn't gonna be sitting without anything to lean on anymore. I was damn damn tired la. So when sister Gerard was giving her talk, I sorta like went to a corner and rested my head on a chair. I was rudely awakened by Shaun or Melvin who asked me to go to the dorm and sleep. Picture this alright, Ben Teo, Mike, Melvin, GErard and I all went to the dorm to sleep. Call us good youth helpers lol... so anyways I was rudely awoken once again by someone whom I forgot (lucky him) Tellin me to go get the games ready. But setting up our station was damn friggin fun la! Like all of us who went to set up the dirty water game went there clean but came back lookin like we aged 50 years cuz of all the starch and everything. That Damned Melvin started the ball rolling by exploding a bag of starch all over himself, shaun and me. So the station ICs were Jamie, Sarah and myself and we spent most of the night running away from naughty people who wanted to get us dirty. Thereafter, it was just washing up and sleep I guess. Ah yes, I did skip mass in the morning too but that's Yvelyn's fault cuz I jus met her and since I wasn't going for mass (it was pretty much decided already) I ended up talking to her.

Day 2
By some miracle I managed to wake up on time for mass and everything and we had to wake up before 7! The third talk was by father Bill Heng so after morning praise we sat dilligently on the floor and tried to pay attention. At least I didn't fall asleep for this one. Oh yea I forgot to mention my group members yea? I had Amanda de Souza, Ellen, Elyssa, Lavania, Lynette, Melissa Tan, Noel, Pattrick, Jeremy and Aaron. My co facils were Kenny (again), Constance and Shireen. I like my group at least they did share and talk... rather than keep silent and stone. Yea so the second day was jus like more deep stuff like the healing session and everything but I had fun in the night, writing my warm fuzzies and playing that "EVERYBODY DANCE NOW" game.. hahaha I was like damn happy when I managed to figure out the complexity of the game itself. I swear it was a major distraction from the warm fuzzies I was supposed to be doing. Now for that, you can blame Marlie, Devinna, BayBay and Krifith. When I finally managed to finish it up it was pretty much sleep for me and the guys. Thinking bout it, I managed to evade alot of things and was often caught at the dining area talkin to Yveloin lol... walao the whole day was damn dry la.

Day 3
*sheepish grin* Gerard and I woke up super dooper late. I seriously dunno why it was only the both of us but when I woke up, I got this like huge shock cuz it was 11am and I thought I was the only one who overslept but lo and behold, when i turned around there he was.... STILL SLEEPING... Mr Gerard Teo. So the day ended pretty much normal... I mean there wasn't anything great that happened.. Gerard and I went to eat with lesley though when the bus dropped us in gardens.

This afternoon I woke up thinkin of like the Sec 3s and confirmation. Like in 7 weeks or so, they're gonna be gone and we'll be helping out with a new batch next year. With those thoughts in my head, I felt like crying. Lol I dunno why but i just felt like... cuz I feel so attached to everyone now and I noe I probably won't see like half of them ever again. Oh well... hope some of them come help us next year!

2006-08-25T03:10:00.000-07:00

Yet another whole month of endless lazing around and taking time off from the hustle and bustle of everyday life... yes the holidays are finally here and though it may seem a rather joyous occasion I'd really beg to differ. W24P's disbanded and I can but just dread the class that I'd be posted to next semester. W24P will always be the highlight of my life whenever I may reminisce about my life in the near future. Yes we had our fair share of arguments and conflicts but we always managed to solve them in the end and that is the mark of true friendship.

Ram
Dude, you're pretty spastic! Whenever we play dota you only care bout hero kills and you don't think about winning the game. You're the class joker and joke and I'd say that without you the class would be pretty boring. Don't go all emo cuz we're splitting up, we'll still meet up for lunch yea?

Sen
Class gangster. Life would have sucked in class without you too. Bitching here and there and disturbing all the random people in RP. You're a bag full of fun man... walao gg la!

Mitch
I think you're the only guy that I went out with the most in class la! Clubbing and all that... we've had some pretty fun times yea? You're my closest buddy in class (think of all the times we got caught together smoking lol) yep! We'll definitely chill out during these holiday period

Raymond
I thought you were this quiet lil punk who looked a lil weird. Then we became friends and all (making fun of ram and everything) You turned out pretty alright! Mr nice guy and good friend indeed! Love you Ray!

To the others in W24P I'd like to write personal messages for each and everyone of you but it's the thought that suffices yea? All in all, we've had shit loads of fun and we'll always be friends forever. It's not like anyone's dying or anything and we'll all see each other again. Just don't forget one another yea?

Update on recovery status : Pretty good. I finally managed to get a whiff of the euphoric smell and taste of my all time favourite... DURIANS!!! When I finally smelt it I was rather ecstatic and overcome with emotion for a short while. It may not be of any importance to normal people but that's why I say we humans always take things for granted. It's been 9 months since my accident and slowly experiencing recovery is such a joy to me that I become all teary whenever I know something else is improving. Life is short, don't take it for granted... that's my advice to everyone out there!

Lastly, I think it's high time I forget about you and move along. I can't stay stagnant forever waiting for something that will never come. You will be a fragment of my imagination from now on and it hurts to say this but I've got to handle the truth. I'll let you in on a secret alright? I found this pretty flower whilst walking in the park one day. Beauty is in the eye of the beholder and to me it was and still is the most perfect flower. The sun's rays shone down on it creating the most beautiful image ever possible. I could only gape at the radiant texture of its petals, the spectrum effect the sun and dew droplets were creating and the contrasting color of the flower. It was so out of this world that I wanted to take it back home with me. How long would it last though? Taking it from the scenic garden and putting it in a vase at home, how long would it last? I care so much about this new found flower which I don't know anything about that it scares me. I've taken a few flowers back but they all withered away right before my eyes and with a heavy heart I had to throw their remains away. That's why I don't want to eradicate this flower from the garden. I'll carry my heavy heart and place it next to that flower so that it's beauty and glory shall ease the burdens of my heart and maybe someday, someday.... I'll live in that very garden with no other worldly cares with that flower, basking in all its glory.

2006-08-06T16:17:00.000-07:00

Now that i'm back in cat class, some explanations are needed I guess? Which would only be fair because apparently some not so nice things have been said and I'm once again caught right smack in the middle.

Firstly, Amanda, I seriously don't know what to say. You can't push all the blame to me and say that I'm the one who caused you your misery. I didn't even tell anyone that YOU were the one who spread those rumours except my buddies. People out of the goodness in their hearts told me that now who was I to believe? Let's face it your words aren't very credible are they? I didn't believe them at the start but then it's either you've got shit loads of enemies or they were telling the truth. Geez man, I left cat class to just take a break from all the heat that this was causing. I don't really like being the centre of attention so I just wanted to chill and take a break. So why isit my fault that people think you're the one who caused me not to come? I never in my life said that to anyone.

I have no reason to explain my actions to anyone let alone you but I'm being what I promised to do and that is to "journey with you people until confirmation" so it's my responsibility to explain this to you I guess. I was wrong in taking that break and leaving everyone in cat class alone by doing that I wasn't fulfilling my duty but what did you expect me to do? Anyways, go ahead and spite me, block me or malign me but my conscience is clear. I've no time to play this sorta games seriously.

Melvin what the heck man go talk to her. She's scared to talk to you because of me. One more thing, I've never influenced Melvin's thoughts about you.. like I say and I will say one last time, I'm not his MASTER. He has a life of his own and a brain of his own... he's not my subordinate or anything of the sort. He's my friend... that's all. So stop pushing all the blame on me, I'll accept what I've done wrong but other than that I won't hear of it because I'm no pushover.

Lastly, about your dream, I won't ever tell you not to be too close to Melvin because he seems to be helping you with your problems and stuff so that's good isn't it? Your dream's damn weird la but quite funky.. heh.

Anyways that aside (i'm speaking in general now) Cat class seems really dull now... What the hell happened man? I'm slowly adapting back into class. Disappointed a few people here n there but don't worry, I'm here to stay till you guys get confirmed! I promise that the camp will be like da bomb cuz we're planning it this time.

Oh Kath I don't noe if you're reading this but I hope Blackie's safe and all. If he is the coward you say he is, he'll be the number 1 to run away from any impending danger trust me. I've got a classmate by the name of RAM who does that most of the time.

National Day's just around the corner, anyone feeling patriotic already? I've been singing those S'pore songs in class lately. Thank goodness it falls on wednesday not a sat or sun cuz we have a HOLIDAY!!!! woo hoo!!!! Being 18 and all *ahem* I can go to the party at momo on tuesday. Good bye to the days of the fake ID. Slowly but surely everyone I know's starting to turn 18 already. It's like everyone's becoming butterflies already! (weird analogy but that's all I can think of now)

Alright i'm a off to bed now. Afternoon naps are the best and I really typed like a hell lot today. Grr... Irritated. Nitez!

2006-07-28T22:30:00.000-07:00

18 AT LAST!!! haven't been blogging lately but I guess I should start now or this will be a dead blog. Watchin Mohsen and Yvonne having a msn argument (apparently both of them hate each other now)

Firstly, a few thank yous are in order. Thanks to all my classmates for making my birthday a happy one. They tricked me about the watermelon juice girl and I almost didn't want to get out of class because they said that she was outside. So i was dragged out and then lo and behold there was a big birthday cake there for me and everybody sang me "Happy Birthday" Thanks guys... and of course for throwin me in the damn pond. They took a video too and if i could I'd show it for the whole world here but I don't really noe how to do it so if you wanna see it ask Ram for the video.

Thanks to chee wee and Tony for slacking with me at sentosa, drinking beer at KM-8 and sleeping on the hard wooden benches.

Thanks to my best buds, Melvin, Gerard and Mike for having the steamboat dinner with me. I swear it was damn nice, I'm definitely going back to eat there one of these days. Urgh but all the food's gonna plump me up.. gotta go jogging tonight or something.

I managed to use my IC last night for the first time in my life. I bought beer from 7-11 and I was wearing my school PE t-shirt so the woman asked for my id and I happily handed my IC over then she had the audacity to say "Cannot BUY!" so I glared at her and said "WHY CANNOT?" then she took a 2nd look and said "oh yesterday your birthday hor.. can can" basket... I would have caused a scene if she hadn't said Happy Birthday.

I've been plauing Final Fantasy 8 on the com lately and it's super old school but it's damn fun I think it's because of that that I'm gettin these headaches in the night lately. It's friggin pain la and I never really ever had a headache before. It's quite the experience.

That's like most of the stuff that's been happening in my life lately and I'm contented.. strangely enough. Now is a good time to settle down and enjoy life ain't it? heh

2006-07-03T22:33:00.000-07:00

When the fear of death hits you smack in the face, don't you appreciate life better? In that moment do you reflect upon your past actions and wished to turn back the time?

I have a few words to say to some people and if you're not on this list it doesn't mean you're not being thought about.

I'm Sorry

To : the dude with the blue t shirt today

I had my laugh over you and I scared the shit out of you and I know you will never read this but I'm sorry I had to do what I had to do. Hope you're ok.

To : Melvin, Gerard, Kenneth and Chee Wee

Thanks guys for helping me out even though you weren't obligated to. I'm glad all of us are okay and nothing's wrong or I'd feel guilty for the rest of my life. I'll always look out for you guys and all of you should know that.

To: Tony

Sorry for not including you in and I thank you for looking out for me too BUT there won't be a next time man... that's not the lifestyle I want for myself.... not even for the 'kick'

To : Mom and Pops

Somethings are better left unsaid and I don't want to break your hearts further.

To : Andrew, Ram and the guys

Shocking eh? AND Ram... don't take up the fight with august cuz you know what I'll do. It takes a lesser man to start a fight and a greater man to back out from it. August, quit bullying the poor bugger.

This goes out to many other people out there... my tribute to you people who've known me long enough. No I didn't have a near death experience today but yea it was close enough.

Oh and on a lighter note, I drove for the first time in my life today... think like melvin's balls shrank to the size of a pea and chee wee's stress level hit the roof. I didn't bang anything though so it was alright... pretty close though.

2006-07-02T05:30:00.000-07:00

Dear God,

I'm sorry for my sins, past, present and future. I'm sorry.

Just felt a need to type that out I guess... no particuliar reason.

I'm sorry for dragging you guys in.. It's not like you have an obligation to help me but you did and I love you guys. Thanks guys you're the best! Best of lucK on Monday!

I've nothing much to say at the moment after losing sucha big amount of money but I'll probably sound much better when the weekend's over. Good night!

Oh and I don't think i'm going to school on monday. I don't have the friggin mood.

2006-06-28T20:13:00.000-07:00

I've got a friggin UT tml... geez it'll be great when the UT period's over save me the hassle of revising. Today's science problem was kinda deep. Touched abit on quantam physics which was a pain in the ass and did electron configurations and energy levels. Everybody in the class were kinda loss but I guess everybody pulled through in the end. Good work people!

Why am I bloggin today? Well something happened on a sunday which made me blardie stoned on monday which was a school day. I'm on msn and just chatting with chee wee and he says "let's go for supper" so I say why not? Tony and kenneth came along and we went to changi to eat the nasi lemak there. After supper, I'm all for going home but Tony, being Tony, suggested that we did something else.... I think I shouldn't have opened my mouth about choa chu kang but the damage was done and we made our way to the cemetry. What would have taken a veteran on the roads 30mins to reach we did in like 2 hours? Got lost in woodlands, tuas, yishun and sembewang too. We drove past my school at like 4 am in the morning... made me kinda depressed to know that I was gonna see it again later on. So once we reached the creepy place, we walked abit and the went back home... not before eating breakfast at thompson though. By the time I came back it was 6.30 and I just got ready for school and ended up late anyways. I know drinking loads of red bull aint' good for your body but I was too damn shagged to care and I drank like 2 cans before feeling a lil more hyper.

Urgh so anyways i've managed to recover fully from the fatigue that was haunting me for 2 days. I've got to get ready for our old gabrielite boys dinner on saturday amongst other stuff. See you all later! Ciao!

2006-06-25T23:14:00.000-07:00

hoi people! I'm in a rather good mood at the moment. I just checked out my grades for Problem Solving UT and I got a big fat..... A! To add to that, I've got like 6 As in a row for science. Thank you Ms Joyce... I love you! I had to update today cuz Jovina nagged me to.

Anyways that aside or I'll get too full of myself. This week has been a rather slack week for all of us (classmates) We totally walked out on lesson on monday cuz the problem statement was like too friggin difficult for us simple minded people. We ended up going to far east (window shopping) and walking to cine to play pool and arcade games. Tuesday and Wednesday went through without anything interesting things happening so there's nothing much to talk about there. Thurs I skipped lesson for the first time cuz I was feeling VERY VERY tired I even skipped the UT that was on that very day. Friday the most stupid day to fall into the pond and I just had to be the first one i know to fall in. (left leg only) So I went into the train with a soggy left shoe... I was pushed none other than the infamous MOHSEN!! We had a good laugh about it in the end, even some indian worker walking by laughed at me.. geez talk about humiliation.

I also managed to catch 2 movies during the weekend. "Just my luck" and "She's the man" haha all of them seem like chick flics but they were nice anyways so do go check it out if you peeps have the time yea?

I can get my license pretty darn soon... heh... can't wait to drive around like chee wee... Blasting music.. looking at bapoks... (ok that's optional). going everywhere he pleases. My dad's gonna keep to his word and get me a car too so yea I've got it all covered.. Dad dotes on me heh... sometimes it's good to be the only son.

NExt week there's gonna be a OLD GABRIELITE BOYS dinner and i'm not talking about those LKKs that are as old as our parents. People like our age (our group's mostly gabrielite boys so this is just another excuse to have fun with the dudes!) Probably will go to some restaurant and then club after that or something? who knows?

2006-06-16T22:26:00.000-07:00

Okay I'm Finally awake... been a rather tiring day for me. Cuz Raymond's party was like yesterday!!

LOCATION : MY HOUSE

It was fun... had to trick raymond into coming to my house so I kinda led him on to think that we (Hasita and Ram) were giving him a ginormous dog for his birthday. So when he came we just ended up slacking and all that shit. Gave the birthday boy 2 welcome shots to start the night... and err... he ended up puking lol... BUT it was his first time drinking so it's understandable ok? A rather commendable achievement even if i do say so myself.

SO anyways the rest of the guests came like later on.... Raymond was like happily smiling to himself on the couch by then. Played abit of mahjong and cards and won money. I think I'm so much better off playing mahjong compared to betting on soccer.

So by 12 everyone had left cept Ram and Raymond cuz Raymond was pretty gone and Ram was allowed to sleep over. After awhile Gerard, Mike, Ben and Kenneth came over and helped drink abit of the Chivas and played 5 - 10 hahhaa.... I became rather red in the face so just stopped after awhile. When those dudes were gone, I went to bathe and try and get some sleep but I couldn't cuz Ram was making me come out of the room to constantly pound him for saying stupid things. Ended up having a boys discussion which Ram wasn't actively participating in and then went to sleep around 7am.... WOKE UP AT... 10 am to find Ram and Raymond standing beside my bed and looking at me like little ghost sia... we were supposed to go out but in the end SOMEONE couldn't make it so we just stayed at home. Ram kept perstering me to let him out of the house so I didn't get much sleep. When they left, I even came online cuz I didn't feel all that sleepy anymore until it was like 3pm?

Damn you Ram.

Oh and I watched the omen yesterday... pretty wicked stuff although I wasn't concentrating much on it. You know sometimes you just tell yourself that you want to do a certain thing but somehow or another external forces love to distract you and prevent you from going to that target? When that day comes for me..... how will it go? Will I make the wrong choice and be a fool for the rest of my life? Who wins? Nobody knows lol....

2006-06-10T23:38:00.000-07:00

Here's to the start of the World Cup 2006. (I know it's like one day late but I was at my class' chalet yesterday so forgive me) The opening match was great!!! I mean Germany really kicked some ass and won me some money... I just placed a bet for fun cuz Andrew asked the class to place a bet. Anyways besides soccer, the chalet was rather fun I would say. It was raining most of the time so we sought solace in our room. Nana complained that I took up alot of space on the bed and she didn't have any place to sleep cuz I took up my bear like sleeping position where I curl up into a ball.

We also checked our marks at the chalet cuz i brought my lap top along to play dota but in the end we didn't play. sheesh.... I totally forgot to do my RJ, evaluation and Quiz for the lesson on the last day of class.... I GOT A C!!!! FIAK... now I have 2 Cs... dammit. (Note to self, I sound like a geek when I say that.. please refrain in the future)

For a good whole 2 days we were playing Murderer, guess the number, in between and crazy camp ice breakers. Oh and we found out that DC's a violent sleeper.. she'll really murder anyone who's sleeping anywhere near her. A few people gave their horrific accounts of near death experiences when everyone woke up in the morning so on the 2nd day she took one whole bed to herself. Sleeping on the 2nd night was so much better cuz it wasn't that squeezy compared to the 1st day and I wasn't sleeping under the air con which was drippin water.

One thing that I can never EVER forget about the chalet would be Augustine's boxers.... HAHHAHA he had to do a dare and Yvonne had to pull down his pants. He was like "I warn you all it's gonna be abit big cuz my boxers are like tight and has a push up effect" WTF??? hahahhaa.... damn farnie. I couldn't stop laughing and I still can't if i think of it.

Been drinkin 3 days in a row!!! ARGH goodbye flat stomach... HELLO beer belly. This world cup season's really not healthy. People are too easily influenced by the "Tiger" beer ads they see on TV cuz beer and soccer kinda mix? DAMN you people! heh...

Anyways today's benedict Teo's 18th birthday so I had a small excuse to drink i guess. We went to cocolatte and it was kinda boring. There was this dance troupe that were hoggin the dance floor and they "burned" anybody who tried to dance so like just sat down, dranked and watched them dance. Ben went home a lil less composed than how he was when he left it.

Another week of the hols left... I've gotta utilize the rest of the time left and make sure I have fun. I mean going back to school ain't that bad either but it's just the waking up part. If all goes well, I should have an activity like everyday. Hopefully I should have the money to fund these activities too.

Life goes on as usual. Has God given me another chance? Another Shot? Should I take it? What will happen? Isit still the same? Geez so many questions and only I can find the answer. *doh* headache... go with the flow boy, go with the flow.

2006-05-31T22:17:00.000-07:00

Alright we're officially in rugby already!!! Went for all the trainings so far and it's messed up I swear... I've never felt this tired since like in secondary school. We had to work on our quick feet, changing of directions, dynamic stretches and tackling. I came home a beaten and hungry man. As usual, my dad tried to kapo my food but I didn't allow him to... not in a million years if I'm that hungry. That all happened on tuesday I went jogging on monday and today as well. Some people claims that I've gained weight and I look different (which according to them is a bad thing) so being the oh so ever compromising fella that I am, I decided to go the extra mile to lose the weight that I seemed to have gained.

Oh and today Mohsen was like nuts cuz the class who won us in dota... TWICE... decided to use the wireless projector to flash "WE OWNED YOUR CLASS.... TWICE" so obviously we weren't happy about it and called the guy who did it to come out of class. It was lunch break already so the other dota players had all gone downstairs for lunch. The guy who claimed he designed the slide said that he sent it over by accident... a likely story. Mohsen threatened to "beat his face big" and I quote. I merely just said that "we have every reason to whack you up right here right now do you know that?" and he was like "Yes I know.... sorry sorry sorry" he really tried too hard to act brave and I guess we were trying to hard to act pissed but I mean we were kinda pissed but not to the extent that we would whack a guy up la. I think Mitch would have though.

I haven't been blogging lately have I? Well up to date, we haven't had like much to do cuz everyone's been so busy. Melvin and Jona's birthday was last week.... heh we celebrated it for them at punggol end in school uniform.. there's no better school than old school. I have to thank Pravin for his generosity and I hope Melvin and Jona enjoyed the day. If I had pictures I'd post them but apparently I don't think any pictures were taken that day.

Alright I'm off to call my classmates.. they seem to have this physics problem and they want ME of all people to help them with it.... *Crosses fingers* hope I get it wrong.... *bleah*

2006-05-20T10:50:00.000-07:00

Yeah Yeah... mock me. *laughs* Since i accidentally slept on the couch today and woke up early I shall just type a short entry of what happened this week.

School's pretty much the same everyday now. So we gotta come up with stuff to spice up our days. Mohsen and Augustine are like to porn daddies in class. They'll add like the rest of the class into one conversation in MSN n spam porn emoticons or in Mohsen's case, he'll draw weird stuff. Which will of course make everyone laugh but damn bad to the facilitator la. Somehow when things start to get routine you tend to take advantage of it and take it for granted that it'll always be there? I get to spend 6 months with this class and then we have to change. Man that's the only thing that sucks.

Oh and we found a new smoking spot. The guys toilet!!! and we sit on top of the urinals. Yesterday some guy rushed into the toilet and hid behind the door intending to scare his friend. He totally didn't see us until he took a second glance and he himself got a shock. haha... Ah and felix the facilitator came into the toilet too. He said something like "How come you all smoking here? Outside raining right?" and then he went into the cubicle. While he was pissing, he farted *laughs very loudly* and everyone outside were tryin to hold their laughter. So when he left, everyone was laughin at him.

Oh and i watched silent hill at chee Wee's house yesterday. It's not really that scary a show it won't be worth paying that 8 bucks to watch it in the cinema. That's what I feel personally.

2006-05-08T18:43:00.000-07:00

It's about time I blogged again. I can't seem to find the time to blog these days because i'm either too lazy or I'm too tired. I could blog in school but nahh... home's where the heart is.

I managed to catch Mission Impossible 3 thanks to Mitchell, May, Nana and Yvonne. It was GREAT! I swear! I mean I was like jumping in my damn seat when the theme song started. WOOTS... lol... Tom Cruise is like the coolest guy ever. The plot is great and the action is BEAUTIFUL! Now I can't wait to watch X men 3, Da vinci code and Over the hedge. May is the month of movies i guess. I should go out with my classmates more often n have more outings like this.. everyone's so fun and all. Mitchell always enriches me with stories about his good old days and Yvonne jus keeps asking me to just go and die. Nana's cute and super fun too heh... I'm glad to be in W24P.

Ah yes and I managed to rope the guys in class to join rugby with mitchell.. I myself will be trying it out. Mitchell says i need to wear tights underneath so as to prevent abrasions. I think i'll need a hell lot more than tights. I've got to look out for my damn skull cuz i'm pretty accident prone. IF there was American Football i'd sign up straight away without any regrets.

Ah and yes sadly, the PAP won majority seats once again. Congratulations to them... Aljunied was the closest fight ever! The WP were short of 20 000 votes which is about 2% of the voters in S'pore. How close is that la...

Most of the guys in gardens seem to have a life suddenly.. I have school, Geof has school, Melvin and Gerard have a galfren (not to mention school... poor things lol) Jared has O's... Mike has O's but he still comes down once in awhile. It sucks but there's nothing anyone can do... yea? This weekend was spent wasted... we didnt do anything so like i spent most of the time at home. JAmes Chan and home... somehow they don't really go together but the fact that I'm currently hone now straight after school means something doesn't it? lol.... oh well take care everybody! It's another 4 day week heh... Happy Holidays!!!!

2006-04-30T01:08:00.000-07:00

Yo! Last night was kinda fun... we celebrated Shaun's Birthday and went to eat at Oriental Singapore. The food there's great and the price is great as well... 70 bucks a person excluding drinks. Well it's a buffet so yea all of us were tryin to get our money's worth (typical) But the variety there's awesome. There's like Japanese, Indian, BBQ, Seafood and Local tables where u get to choose your food from (not to mention the dessert corner) Mike, Chee Wee, Melvin, Jared, Gerard, Shaun and I were there... Gerard came with his gf.. and he was like really late. *shakes head* Can't be bothered with the bugger... not yet. After dinner, we went to purchase tickets to "when a stranger calls" but it was 12 and the show was like at 2 so they went to play pool... we were all in dinner jackets and wearing ties so we looked kinda outta place but heck who cares... I was really tired so while they played pool, I caught some sleep on this really comfortable chair there. The show was rather nice.. it's a thriller and for a budget film it's quite good... I mean Jared screamed so yea get the picture? lols.

Today however wasn't exactly the best of days... Man Utd lost to chelsea. Not jus by 1 goal.. no not 2 either... they lost by 3 friggin goals... Rooney was like injured towards the end of the match and I guess that was it... Chelsea won the English league by beating Man Utd... Thank goodness the celebrations weren't being held in Old Trafford... Sir Alex Ferguson would have thrown a fit. Putting that aside however, I dropped the phone that Jared lent me and it got cheesed off and decided to piss me off in return... Now I can't see anything on the screeen unless it's like the bottom half. So Shaun being the nice guy that he is decided to lend me his phone and now i'm using a Samsung phone... it's kinda weird but i'll get used to it.

Would you people follow your heart or your head? I seriously don't noe what to follow at the moment cuz I'm being put in a position that is alien to me. My head tells me that doing that is what's expected of me and I'll definitely enjoy it but will it last? My heart tells me that doing that will make me a happy man but i'll get bored eventually... *thinks thinks* get my drift? I think i should like just stay the guy I am and relax... It's less taxing on the head. The guy who never grows up.... hmm

2006-04-25T08:23:00.000-07:00

Gosh it's been hectic... school's like shit loads of fun I have to admit but like sometimes you feel you don't learn anything but then again in the end you end up learning just a little bit? I've been gettin B for all my modules... something is going wrong somewhere... Urgh.. Oh well B ain't that bad but i'd like to see at least one A.. I've learnt the tricks from Jen.. Thanks Jen! So I should be able to get my friggin A for the next few modules...
Surprising how a person's mentality can change over time ain't it? I'm suffering from that right now as a matter of fact. I've been placing too much expectations on myself that what I get have no substance at all... I found something normal but filled with so many things to show me and share with me that I just want to give it my all. It's time to grow up and act like a man... settle down and treasure life.
Since I started school, I've rarely been hanging out in gardens and meetin the rest of the guys so I decided to have a best buddy outing and to welcome the lost sheep Jona on saturday night. Gerard, Shaun and Jared didn't make it for dinner as they had their reasons so after dinner, everyone was down except gerard and we had intended to go for a movie but gerard couldn't come down... However, it was about Jona and Jona wanted to play lan so we went to niner and played a couple of games. Finally when it was like 12 Gerard came down and brought Nicola along with him.... *shrugs* I don't have anything against her but like it was meant to be an all guys thing... can't blame him though, they just got together and he like wants to spend more time with her... garh... so ended up drinkin at melvin's place and being happy high.. slept there till like sunday night then came home and slept again... I'll probably be bloggin like once every week now... and it won't exactly be that long cuz i've no time.
Oh yea Jona, Jen, Melvin and I almost got struck by lightning today... scary stuff... we were alighting the bus in the rain to go to this coffeeshop along thompson road when the lightning struck like 15-20 feet away from us and I like jumped and covered my head in the bus... *pfft* once I like recovered I just scrambled down the bus and didn't look back... damn pai seh la. lol Somebody up there loves me...

2006-04-16T15:13:00.000-07:00

YES i know I haven't blogged for like a week but it's jus a week... sheesh relax. It's been a long week and a rather fun one at that.. tiring definitely but fun. Let's see I guess I'll have to start from sunday cuz we went to Sentosa... heh... Tony, Gerard, Chee Wee, Shaun, Marcel, Mike, April and I were supposed to meet at 1.30 but ended up meeting at 4.30 since we're mostly ex gabrielites.... The sun was more or less gone when we arrived so we just kicked the soccer ball around, threw the baseball to each other but never catchin it (cuz you'll like break your fingers if you catch it without a glove), threw the frisbee to this bunch of girls to get a better look at them lol.... (the frisbee got lost in sea in the end) and lastly we played this wrestling game.. Gerard was sittin on my shoulders... Mike was on Shaun.. Tony was on Chee wee haha the objective of the game was to be the last 2 standing... Gerard and I were undefeated champions haha... So all in all the day was rather fun... came home right after that to sleep.

Monday was like the first day of orientation at RP... Was supposed to meet the liddle gal becky at 7.30 and surprisingly I was early but someone was late... VERY late... had to resort to taking a cab to school... (ouch... wish i could drive already). Upon our late arrival, we realised that there was nothing to fret about cuz loads of people were flocking into school late as well. It was super crowded.. and I saw a couple of frenz from St Gabs... class was kinda nonsense... seemed rather dull. Didn't talk to anyone cept this guy called andrew.... Things looked rather bleak for me in school... hanchose man hanchose. Went to gardens and bitched to the guys bout the class then came back home.. to sleep again.

Tuesday... school day again... and guess what? The liddle gal was late... AGAIN.. if this becomes a habit It's gonna be bad... So I told her that we should meet at 7.00 instead so that she'll come around 7.15-7.30 n we'll be on time... that logic should work.. if it doesn't then I'll just have to buy her a friggin irritating alarm clock for her bdae or something... *shakes head* Alright the second day in school was so much better.. we had various ice-breakers and it was quite fun... Andrew didn't come but I talked to this fella called Han Ting i think.. lol... n there was this china girl in our group... urgh You people should know that the chinese language and I never had a great affinity with each other... so there was alot of communication problems... If she's gonna stick to the group I forsee many troubles.. I'll be quite proficient at charades by the end of the year... Presentation's gonna be a problem too... hmm... *shrugs*

Managed to talk things out and like we're all cool now... My last words on the matter would be "what's short, small and puny?" *grinz* no physical violence please... I'm a man of peace... Ghandi's my idol.

Ok now here's the thing... We went fishing on friday.. Jona organised it originally and like everyone was cool n all... however we decided to change the location cuz shaun couldn't go if we had gone to east coast... so we thought that punggol would do the trick. Jen and Jona didn't wanna go... for whatever reasons I wouldn't noe but it would still be fishin in the end wouldn't it? Shaun wasn't there for monetary purposes man... I wanted both of you to go too.. then everybody would be happy wouldn't they? geez.... and I ain't angry that you "stole" him away from us... he'll still be a fren... and always will be a brother of mine... I'm sorry if you wanna see things your way and think that we did it out of spite but nope I just wanted to please everyone but apparently you gave reasons that were not really sensible so I had to ignore you. We appreciate what he did and it won't go overlooked i assure you that... So just chill savvy? I really dont wanna waste anymore energy fighting battle after battle... But just a word if I may.. you're not exactly puttin him in a good light.. do some soul searching and I'm sure you'll understand... that's all I'm gonna say... ciao!

2006-04-06T02:16:00.000-07:00

howdy doody! So many things that I need to voice out that my head feels rather messed up now. Let's see I shall jus list it out and spout whatever that needs be spouted accordingly.

1. Ice Age 2
2. The hills have eyes and the incidents that followed
3. Mr poser and co lol
4. Bean's folly
5 Message to Melvin
6 The new fangled rumour bout driving

People! GO WATCH ICE AGE 2.... it's so damn hilarious I swear... It's definitely better than Ice Age 1 and packed with loads of laughs. I give it 4 stars... I would give it 5 but it's a cartoon so i gotta act abit grown up yea? lol... I swear the squirrel is the swayest thing i've seen in my life.. every single scene with him in it shows him trying to get this dumb acorn and constantly failing... yea constantly. Bring the whole family.. your kids will love it (if u happen to have any)

However, I strongly advice the weak hearted not to watch the hills have eyes.... It's a crap ass movie... blood and gore seems like the supposed theme.. and by george they're stickin to the damn theme with passion. Please eat a light meal before watchin the damn show cuz you won't have any mood to eat anything after the show. I'd give it 2 stars and I have nothing more to say bout the show itself. I went to watch it with Pravin and Chee Wee and we happened to be sitting behind these 2 ah lians.. *shivers* Pravin went out in the midst of the movie to answer a phone call of some sort and when he came back he grabbed me on the shoulders and shouted "RAHH" which gave me a shock and pissed the ah lian infront of us.... lol she turned around and said "can you stop making noise?" ok so pravin jus shut his trap and opened it once in awhile to complain that he shouldn't have watched this movie... haha... Well I was feeling rather uncomfortable cuz I tend to shift alot during movies and while crossing my legs I nudged the chair infront of me... yes she turned around once more saying "can you stop kicking the chair asshole!" *shocks* like what the hell? I could just gape at her and go huh? Well I didn't even bother giving her a glance when i left the cinema.. while takin a smoke at the ground floor, I saw this turban dude walking by and being James, I pinched Pravin... being pravin haha he screamed rather loudly.. loud enough for the dude to hear... So he turns around and comes up to me saying "eh boy you think you very funny isit?" So I shrug nonchantly and reply back cooly "nope not being funny at all" and then he says that he didn't disturb anybody why disturb him? I obviously deny any accusations and he says "balls to you".... how rude. lol..

I love Mr (poser) and the rest of the group... Marcel, Jared, Mike, Gerard and the rest... The listen to reason and "fight" for what is right... Obviously some wouldn't want to take sides but the others will go all out to help a friend.... there maybe some biasness along the way but it all works out fine. My man Bean, you've chosen the wrong guy to pick a quarrel with... You're not exactly well liked by society and no this does not imply on melvin at all... it's your own doing.. I feel sad for you... seeing you sitting alone at the coffeeshop frantically calling your indian frenz to come down cuz you feel lonely... tut tut... you always choose to go against the wrong guy don't you? A wise decision would be to just say sorry wouldn't it?.... *sniggers* but you won't because you're full of yourself and you think you're better than everybody... newsflash my black friend - you're a nobody.. you have no future, no woman, no respect... nothing. Don't come running back to us in times of need.

Melvin Melvin Melvin.... Let's just be as straightforward as straighforward can go... Your Words are not credible to me anymore.. (I shall just type this with you and me as the subject.. i don't want to voice what the rest are thinking) Remember someone once said to me... "Don't worry I won't see her everyday"? Yea... apparently that ain't happening isn't it? I'm baffled my man at how little you care about your credibility.. Mean what you say and say what you mean... I love you man... I love you like my little brother... even though you're older than me.. but very misguided you are. Geez man if you end up like Jona I'll have nothing to do with you anymore. Oh yea... he meets us once in awhile in gardens but rarely goes out with us no more. You are heading towards that direction my friend. I'm making it a point now to make sure that history doesn't repeat itself.. i'm going to your house, i'm jioing you out.. somehow or another she's always there... let's not jus talk about physically... when she's gone, you're always on the phone with her.... yes? even if you argue with me that you're always there for me... what about the rest? do they mean nothing to you? Rebecca this isn't something I have beef with you about.. Cuz its up to the fella himself to prioritize his life. Melvin, I shall warn you before hand... I have a test for you... it's rather simple... if you fail something so small as that, you both can have all the space in the world... for good.

Oh yea Chee Wee told me just this afternoon that if your IC has two photos, you will not be allowed to drive at the age of 18 and you'll only be able to drive at the age of 21.. I mean if that's true, i'm cool with it cuz i have a single photo on my IC only heh.... anybody know about this?

2006-04-03T09:09:00.000-07:00

I swear today was messed up... the weather was so friggin hot but I had to be responsible and accompanied the sec 3s to the Villa Francis home for the aged. Things were not exactly going smoothly and the weather wasn't helping much with my temper... I dislike rumours.. especially stuff that embarrasses me... I ain't gonna take bullshit like that, go think what you think and act accordingly (like you so did) and I shall folow suit. So here's the deal, I ain't gonna be responsible for all you sec 3s no more... I might come back.. It's a big might but if tryin to educate you people about god's so troublesome I migth as well wash my hands off you... Do not take advantage of the remainin youth helpers cuz they have their limits too and a certain few have pushed me to the edge. Keep your slander and rumours to yourself and maybe the atmosphere would be a little less tense. That's gonna be my final word on the matter... god bless.

I swear to you Bean... if you raise your fucking voice at us in public one more time and try to act like you're a big shot, I'll beat you senseless so help me god... I don't care whether i've fallen down and have a risk of not recovering but I'm sure gonna teach your puny, black ass a friggin lesson. You pissed me off on the wrong day mother fucker. Even though you're my friend I'll still beat you up if you're asking for it.. cuz that's who I am... deal with it dick shit.

Riddle of the day
Who are they? They are but just hanging around for the sake of our pleasure and status... nothing more. Please do not tell me that They really love you? That's fucking crap... All They want is your money and love which they will chuck away when they get bored with you... To the fools who are bewitched by Them I shall pray for your liberty but I shall not be caught in the webs of treachery that They spin to entrap you. My vendetta against You people shall be a very sweet one... We were not meant to be your slaves... You people are the weaker ones and it shall forever be. Sit down, Shut up and look pretty.... that's what You people should do... For those people who haven't been bewitched yet I shake you warmly by the hand and offer you a choice to be lead on by the nose or to be the one to lead.... it's up to you.... if you want to lead, show Them who's boss. I shall not elaborate... ciao.